everybody needs a popsicle

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

(lets put on party hats :) )

tomorrow's a brand new day;

cant get to sleep can you! first question daddy asked this morning "how can you sleep for so long?' sigh i dont know whats up with me man i love sleeeping so much so its making me very very lazy. very lazy to get out of the house, very lazy to run,lazy to do quiet time,very lazy to swim and just when i really feel like playing tennis tmr we're stuck with only 3 ppl :( and today was a total waste of time helping mum at the shop, i practically stoned there for six hours cept for dinner and ribena -.- oh well. the reading bug caught me or vice versa, recently and tada i bought like three books! cant wait to devour them up!

im feeeling so fickle i feel like killing myself. its funnier when the other choice is almost 0. laugh with me, wont you? its strange because all the things i need to change about myself keeps coming out before me but why lord why is it so hard to just yield to you, to yield to that changing process? i want to be ready for you but i just cant seem to shed some of that old skin. i know what to do what to filter and what to seperate myself from but somehow somehow its been a lil difficult. help me lord, take that stubborness from me and mould me, break me. not by my strength but yours.

'cause i've got you to make me feel stronger
when the days are rough and an hour seems much longer
yeah when I got you
oh to make me feel better
when the nights are long they'll be easier together.

one ray of sunlight; x
2:10:00 AM

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

desperate for changing
starving for truth
closer to where I started
chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

forgetting all I'm lacking
completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
you take all of me now

I'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
and I don't know what I'm diving into
just hanging by a moment here with you

there's nothing else to lose
there's nothing else to find
there's nothing in the world
that could change my mind
there is nothing else
there is nothing else
there is nothing else.

phee-eee-weeeet.

i like this song like mad. :) anywayyyyyyyyy WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE i can smell freeeeeeeeeeeom because this week is the last week at work. everybody just kill me and lock me up at home if i ever go to hn again okay? time to move on. :)
anyway anyhow things been really good lately and one of the reasons is cos one of my favourite friends for all time jessica teo zuan qin/tortoi is back! :))))) not for a day or two but for a YEAR! :) yay to you jessssssss. we have so much more to catch up.

today was a lazy day somehow. met up with pat pat pat and the rest for dg. we learnt about righteousness again! so amazing how everything seems to tie up and form that bigger picture. you know the more i learn and hear from stef or pat or anyone else, i begin to appreciate the death of jesus so much more. thats why never think you know everything and just block your ears when someone is teaching on somewhat the same topic because the spirit reveals things at different time, in season. all in all, abide retreat plus cell word on sat + dg today all was so good and refreshing. steal my notebook for reads! -_- after that slacked at sasa/stef's house for zillion of years, played settlers(getting sick of that even though i won twice today! HAHA). finally ate dinner at ah ma's. man i miss my grandparents :( took lil sis shopping at tbp for awhile today cos she was so sad daddy left for thailand for a week today. i think im a nice sister, dont you think so too!? -.-

haha recently despite being so busy with silly work im so proud i met up with ppl i have not seen in ten thousand yrs like fishy and elsy for eating lunch with me :) and supper/movie with some of the guys from 77 :) and and and t4-incomplete thanks to the silly jeanie beanie/weakling. haha miss you babe better come join us soon! and tmr supper with coolboy after my nine thirty to nine thirty day. GOD SAVE ME .zzzz.

one ray of sunlight; x
12:30:00 AM