Tuesday, March 29, 2005
"So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don't fall! 13No temptation has seized you except what is common to man.
And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." 1Corint 10:12-13
i mean ive always heard people saying that there's sucha a phrase in the bible but i never for once checked it out and so yest i fnally came across it. and it was sucha apt timing. ayee. only you know lord only you know.
im not strong you know at least i dont think i am.
there are many things that i would like to say to you but i dont know how. i think georgie is very very very stupid. yeah i think im dumb. whatever i shall work even harder. im getting highly irritable of late esp today! im sorry to anyone i showed any form of little attitude today im SO SORRY> i mean it was just bad la okay and i tried today. but nvm tmrw will be a better day yes yes? im not gonna let myself wallow in depression. i mean you can acty prevent depression. HAHA im not so stupid by letting myself sink deeper. ohhh NO MORE EMO songs tonighht (:
and i know you're holding my hand thru it all, thru it all you said you'll never ever leave me nor forsake me. im getting tired, really tired, will you strengthen me all over again?she gets high
she gets lost
she gets drowned by the cost
twice a day, every week, all her life
oh, life is waiting for you
it's all messed up, but we're alive
oh, life is waiting for you
it's all messed up, but we'll survive
all messed up, but we'll survive
one ray of sunlight; x
10:18:00 PM
Monday, March 28, 2005
and they sayno school today and im supposed to be rejoicing like mad i mean i
was rejoicing like mad but it aint the case now. ahha anywae this weekend has been good. not sitting down at my table mugging has been nothing but wonderful. and sleeping whenever i feel like it has been awesome. and i do my quiet time more reg now! i know its bad when i study and neglect qt i shall try to change that! alot of catchin up has been done this weekend. and im reminded of THOSE days. indeed those were the days
worth living hmm worth living mighht not be the exact words but aye cant find a better phrase cept from that song. forgive me if im crapping and providing useless/you-dont-care details. i dont care what you think its my blog so shut up. okay, im sorry i dont know where that came from. sighh maybe i should just shut up and you just enjoy the pictures aighht.
our pathetic first three months class outing but i enjoyed it (:
our yummilicious ice-cream shiokalaosia mann.
hwee js georgie
and today! me and chiobu leow. 
mindy and georgie, in our little world.yes, a catching up weekend as well as tennis during the week end (:
and so georgie is happy i think.daddy is being funny he's asking me to wear some cooling-gell-in-a-scarf- thingy when i play tennis i almost fainted. oh yes i love youu winn! you're my longest goody fren and i dont think it'll ever change. and da bao, i love you too
i will stand up for you no matter what you're going through.how come i never hear you say.
one ray of sunlight; x
11:47:00 PM
Sunday, March 27, 2005
what day is it? and in what month?
this clock never seemed so alive
i can't keep up and i can't back down
ive been losing so much time
cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and i don't know why, i can't keep my eyes off of youall of the things that i want to say just aren't coming out right
im tripping on words
you've got my head spinning
i don't know where to go from here
dere's something about you now
i can't quite figure out
everything she does is beautifuleverything she does is right.
really wanted type lotsof stuff cos i had alot on my mind but im really very sleepy cos i woke up uber early to play tennis today! finally! im off. goodnighht
and because You live, i can face tmrw, bacause You live, all fear is gone."His divine power has given us evrything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness"
2 Peter 1:3.
one ray of sunlight; x
12:45:00 AM
Friday, March 25, 2005
:)
one ray of sunlight; x
1:39:00 PM
and so its overyeahyeah. block tests are finally finally finally over! sighhh i doubt i'll do very well but who cares its time to play for the next few days! (: even though im not like uber happy its over, im thankful it is becasue i swear im like this close to pulling all my hair out. and i so need to buy those brain viatmins because ive realized during the course of this whole blocktest thingy, i cant remember alot of things la. SIGH. i learnr it but i cant remember... ahhhhh. anywae anyhow i had my share of fun today (: down to town with the tennis team for some crystal jade. i swear the lady was uber irritated by us or rather jason. HAHA. oh wells. xiaolong bao was like how delicious la. we must have more of that! brought back short moments of shanghaii. (: ymmy yummy even now im still dreaming of the food heh. and so it was the long bus ride to church but in one way or another im glad i went la. after that it was supper/laughing time with church ppl. haven been supper/seldon go supper in ages. hehh. thanks to jon gan me and albert didnt have to pay the midnight surcharge! he sent us all the way home. ((: and so im back here once again.
something's irritating me all over again. some ppl NEVER learn and its irritating. whatever. god will handle that person. hopefully soon enough.
I know that you don't understand
the fullness of My love
How I died upon the cross for your sins
And I know that you don't realize
how much that I gave you
But I promise, I would do it all again.
Just to be with you, I've done everything
There's no price I did not pay
Just to be with you, I gave everything
Yes, I gave my life away.just to be with me, you gave up everything. and im so so so thankful for that. thank you jesus for your love so freee.
one ray of sunlight; x
1:23:00 AM
Saturday, March 19, 2005
im so disappointed in myself la I FELL ASLEEP YEST instead of studying after i came online. wahh lao when i woke up i felt like slapping myself left right centre up and down la. i mean do i really love sleeping so much?(yes) and i just fell asleep AGAIN and thank god my conscience woke me up an hour later. URGH that is one big reason why i cant stay home to study. bed's too much of a comfort to handle. but anyway i gave myself a break for being sucha good girl this whole week and for not stepping into town the whole week. (: hehh down to town after tuition with the bao and the force. had fun as usual. SIGH i need retail therapy like badly. today wasnt enough la. cant wait for block tests to be over. short relief but who cares. (: back to studying and i think i shall eat some yummilicious ice cream. DONT SLEEP DONT SLEEP. 8)
of all the things ive believed in
i just want to get it over with
tears form behind my eyes
but i do not cry
counting the days that pass me by
ive been searching deep down in my soul
words that im hearing are starting to get old
it feels like im starting all over again
the
last three years were just pretendand i said,
goodbye to you
goodbye to everything that i knew
you were the one i loved
the one thing that i tried to hold on to
the one thing that i tried to hold on toi still get lost in your eyes
and it seems that i can't live a day without youclosing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
to a place where i am blinded by the light
but it's not right
and it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
i want what's yours and i want what's mine
i want you
but im not giving in this time
and when the stars fall
i will lie awake
you're my shooting star.
i love this song. yes yes goodnighht.
one ray of sunlight; x
9:45:00 PM
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
hello hello (:
im talking a break from studying home today. acty its my ten thousandth break ahha keep fallin asleep i wonder why. ANYWAE i just ate FISH FINGERS? I COOKED IT MYSELF! ahha its one of the first times im acty frying something la besides home econs which was like how many thousand years ago. i feel damn domesticated like some housewive like that :D YUMMY eating your own cooked food rocks. LOL okay so im crappping. studying process has been rather slow i must admit. monday was studying with elsie mousie and tues was spent at the airport with seng fishy,her fren chuhui and kenn. it was productive! so yayy today im about to finish my second chapter so lets see how the day goes. ALRIGHHT im off.
one ray of sunlight; x
4:34:00 PM
Sunday, March 13, 2005
so many things to pray about so many things to do so much to study
yet so little time. :\ just came back not too long ago from playing tennis. TIRING man even thoughh it wasnt very compared to other tennis sessions. oh wells but i MUST and i HAVE to open my eyes wide wide to study. ionic equi here i come for you
im finishing you up tonighht and yes there's still trg tmrw and crazy fishy ho wants me to go at eighht which is highly impossible so have fun with the cleaners tmrw babe. (;
worthy is the lamb
seated on the throne
crown you now with many crowns
you reign victorious
highh and lifted up
jesus son of god
the darling of heaven crucified
worthy is the lamb.even though i heard it before but yest hearing stef talk about the analogy of god's holiness and love is just too awesome to take. everything is so wonderfully plan. (:
away from the sun.
one ray of sunlight; x
11:46:00 PM
Saturday, March 12, 2005
now i come righht before you
with my hands lifted high
and my heart humbly bowed at
your work on the cross
as you hung there and died
you were paying the price
for my life.nothing much to type now. bahh people dont just enter and exit out of your life like that right?
i dont know.anywae im super tired but my room's in a mess and i haven been studying.well done georgie. ge qian/heiseyoumo/almost/let me go/wonderwall/because of you ultimate remix of songs for you to cry your heart out. HAHA. goodnighht.
one ray of sunlight; x
11:46:00 PM
Friday, March 11, 2005
(:
one ray of sunlight; x
9:39:00 AM
Thursday, March 10, 2005
and it's okay if you have go away
oh just remember the telephone works both ways
and if i never ever hear them ring
if nothing else i'll think the bells inside
have finally found you someone else and that's okay
cause i'll remember everything you sang
one ray of sunlight; x
10:47:00 PM
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
boohoohoo. ehh im uber proud of myself for not coming online yest :D everyone seeing this must CLAP LOUD LOUD OKAY i dont care. but anywae sighhhhhhhhh im feeling very very guilty ive been on a ponning streak on monday and today. ponned three periods maths lect, two two periods of chem lect and two periods of physics lect. WHEN my resolution of the year is STARING straight at my face. SIGHH i gotta buck up man ): okay okay. but im studying hard okay esp on sunday i acty finished macro so studying after church IS productive (: wanna know how hard im studying? :D woohoo.
THIS is my source of motivation.MY CHEERLEADER. haha its just block test 1, georgie..
jamie yeo crapping.
pile of books and notes. most of the time im buried under anyway.
SEAWEEED! i cant do without. (:
the verse staring at me whenever i feel tensed up or whatsoever. even if i have to say it a million times, my god is good my god is GREAT (: he's more than that of course.lastly, 8)
me and my notes! AHHA narcisstic(how to spell man!) me. but i DONT CARE.
yeah from all these pictures you can really see how hard i study (PUI) and im really really bored. ahha. so till then BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
i dont know how i found youu.
one ray of sunlight; x
10:19:00 PM
Saturday, March 05, 2005
why did the chicken cross the road?b
it's not very condusive blogging when the family is watching a horror movie on channel eighht. :( ppl who know me will know how terrified i am about such stuff. and talking about being terrified i need to say sorry to fishy ho for squeezing into her cubicle cos of the
mystery cubicle beside her HAHA. damn funny lahh she was like holding onto her peee. dont shy la sisterrrrr. (; anywae anyhow yes yes yet again another week has passed by! damn fast la i tell you. (: and soon As will be over. well basically throughhout the course of the week ive developed a very good habit of sleeping at 12 30 everynight. yuppp and i really need to thank god because im one such person that needs
ALOT of sleep and i'll practically fall alseep at every lesson if i sleep at such ungodly timings when i was in j1. but god has blessed me la cos i can only conc in the nighht so he blesses me by making me able to
AT LEAST wake up at the impt lessons. (: so i thank god for that. today had tuition. oh man we so pissed our dearest maths tutor. the
"ambience" was terrible la. oh wells. he even terminated kian and jian yun. looks like PUNCTUALITY has got be my MENTALITY/PRIORITY (yayy that rhymes -_-) yeah yeah and had cute club meeting and it was nice again reminicin
the fact that we could talk and talk about the past shows and means alot to me. jean and i talked about major events. from taling about us knowwing maris guys to talking about how my dad complained about her to mag low and how mag low scolded her for influencing me and how we both cried like mad girls ont the phone. aigh but hey haven we overcome it? ahha basically i felt like thanking her for standing by me larh. (: did what i wanted to do today with the support of my two babes. HAHA> den down for cell. truthfully, i still miss having cell with the old cell because of the number of years we spent growing tog thus the enormous support we can get from each other. and so its gonna be a long time before the new cell comes to that stage yeah? but hey hey slowly but surely and of course somehow i feel most of the time in our christian walk its about getting out of our comfort zones yeah? and hmm somehow felt that the speaker wasnt very good but i thank god stef taught us so much within that short span of time! thanks stef (: yuppp and im gonna hit the books.
not because of who i am
but because of who You are.
one ray of sunlight; x
11:40:00 PM
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
like the sun that rises everyday, you're so faithfulhello hello (; just came back not too long ago from harbour. its been a long time since we went there to eat. and since trg was cancelled and me yuhui elsie and xiaoqiang went for lunch at subway. lunch turned out to be a major chit chat session which was rather enjoyable. HAHA sighhh if only i could nua everyday everyday ): maths test tmr! i really hope i pass considering the fact that i failed my last test, i better pass this one. (: im trying to study hard i really am but why cant i focus! so infuriating, everytime i sit down and read my notes i
HAVE to get up to get something to munch/get water/walk around/play with sis )): HELP> yes yes i gotta believe that discipline is IN me. focus thats all i need. and ive decided im gonna hang on to four sub by hook or by crook i know im capable yes yes? haha i mighht even get a scholarship MAN -_- just kidding. im so in love with physics now i think i shouldnt drop. i shall keep asking questions at hoh's class. -yeahyeah-
alrighhtey and im so in love with this song now(thanks to fishy ho). very very very sad ):
i will not make the same mistakes that you did
i will not let myself
cause my heart so much misery
i will not break the way you did,
you fell so hard
ive learned the hard way
to never let it get that far
because of youu
i never stray too far from the sidewalk
because of you
i learned to play on the safe side so i don't get hurt
because of you
i find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
because of you
i am afraid.
i lose my way
and it's not too long before you point it out
i cannot cry
because you know that's weakness in your eyes
im forced to fake
a smile, a laugh everyday of my life
my heart can't possibly break
when it wasn't even whole to start withi watched you die
i heard you cry every night in your sleep
i was so young
you should have known better than to lean on me
you never thought of anyone else
you just saw your pain
and now i cry in the middle of the night
for the same damn thing
because of you
i never stray too far from the sidewalk
because of you
i learned to play on the safe side so i don't get hurt
because of you
i try my hardest just to forget everything
because of you
i don't know how to let anyone else in
because of you
im ashamed of my life because it's empty
because of you
i am afraidbecause of you
because of you. ):
one ray of sunlight; x
6:38:00 PM
