Tuesday, January 28, 2003
hmm gettin so attached to my blog nuw. ure great man you knuw everything.thanks for being dere..
sch was okay love helen tan she cancelled the geog lessons had tuision frm 3 45 to 7 wth. damn tired but still hafta study for lit and physics. sighsie it's crazy tmrw 3 tests and chem chem prac. days are getting longer and more dreadful..
sigh and heard our new class room at freaking thomsons will be half our class room size. gosh. must lose some more wt hor.
oh yarr we had some talk abt our love life sessions with 7788 todayy. so cutesie. finally we knuw some of ach others stuff. thanks god when it came to my turn i hadta leave. don wanna talk abt that man. lol.
kayy seeya tmrw blog. wished you were real. [ kayy i knuw i sound mad. shh]
[.:the dayy you went away.:]`
one ray of sunlight; x
9:32:00 PM
Monday, January 27, 2003
heyy...
hm.din go to sch todayy. thank god i din have any relapse. yea. hope tmrw won have too. anyway. todayy tried very very hard to study but cox of medication slept pratically the whole day.wad a pig. anyway tmrw is gonna be a long dayy hope i'll make it through.
yea hmm things are sorted out now.but duno if it's for the better.? birdsie says its for the better cox god has a greater plan for me. hee thanks birdsie. you rawk.
.:j aded.:
one ray of sunlight; x
9:08:00 PM
Sunday, January 26, 2003
hey bloggy.gosh todayy was damn scary kayy.sobx.okayy firstw enta church as usual denw ent town with mum and aunt den while doing shopping..omg my world spun okayy.i was like damn giddy almost fell and fainted kayy den held on to my cousin den mum and aunt quickly rushed me to the hospital..tell you i was dman freaked out and vomited kay.horrible den slept at the hospital for 2 over hours for observation den saw the doc said something got to with my ears..sighsie. wth.and got to see a specialist if it continues.
i knuw it sounds stupid but i thought i was going to like faint and die.lol! kayy fine im paranoid.but yarr you never knoe what cld happen to you you knuw. yea.was suppose to like go meet jeansie they all to celebrate? yea wanted to join them but i hadta faint. neinei. okayy. uhm. don think im goona go sch tmrw. hai. feeling kinda empty nuw. laterss blog.
[wh.er.e we r e you.wh en i needed .yu m.o.st]
one ray of sunlight; x
9:00:00 PM
Saturday, January 25, 2003
don't wanna close the door,
don't wanna give up on it
don't wanna fight no more,
we'll find the way around it
where's the love we had?...
we can make it last
tell me what I gotta be,
tell me what you wanna do
cause I can't live my life
the way you want me to
you know I can't go on
living like we do
do I have to cry for you? ..:.*
yo.bloggy.im so hot now suntanned like crazy today.
hrmm today was a super busy dayy. woke up at 7 den wenta some umpire course at bedok. wth me and angie took 2 cabs for 6 bucks so neinei stupid uncle. hurr. den rushed all e way to kallang for dragon boat! so fun! was dman hot but not bad larr can suntan den after that rushed to tuision..was late den had ta seat at the polar seat.
hee. den after that rushed all e way to east coast to join my cell...hmm. was late..sighsie everyhting also late den rushed like siao den ate dinner.not bad larr everyone was so shagged and im so red! sighsie. but yay im tanner confirm. ;)
[i.dunowherethis.isgoing.if you want.it.thatway pls.tellme.donkeepsilent.]
one ray of sunlight; x
10:58:00 PM
Friday, January 24, 2003
[ .didithaftabethisway. ]
:) had a great dayy. fridayy my fav fav fav dayy.yum. but todayy was quite pissed at selvam sighsie its so hard being her rep you knoe.i think wad happened todayy was totally my fault larr kayy shld have collected the damn worksheets earlier. freak larr den lead to her scolding chin fang and monica,checking our belts shit lar *sorry kayy* *sobx felt terrible kayy wld have cried if she scolded me some more...haii. but yay me daph angie and jess wenta town today and took a nicey neoprint! yea had a great time me and angie bought a choker quite nice larr den saw couple of sch ppl and stupid daph sigh she and her big mouth wadeverrr. but still luv ya babe. hmm cant make it for darling jean burfdae how hope she's not pissed haii but she got elgene den mindy they all also meeting..hmm. feel like meeting her on sat but she's with el den i so extra. so complicated sia. hrm.nvm i promis i'll make up kayy dear.? i love you. *muck* anticip[ating tmrw's programme makes me wanna faint. waking up at 7 sighh. but im still happy! lalala.happy sha lala.
[you said you'd love me forever
i asked how can it be forever.
and now you're leaving,
walking out of my life
leaving footprints in my heart.]
one ray of sunlight; x
11:43:00 PM
Thursday, January 23, 2003
[I'm standing on the bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground]
.tearinmylifeinto
pieces.
heyy bloggy. todayy was quite relaxing larr had photo taking again. hee not bad quite fun.yea. den went for trg with jess and angie.
yea den me and angie hadta play against some cat high ppl. hmm thought that small lil' guy was quite cute.hee.socutesie okayy and he kept smiling. :) den it rained! den we hadta wait for the rain to stop. but it din so me and angie ran all the way to the station shouting and running so fun. felt great larr havent felt like this in a longg time.den me and angie wenta eat yum pie at burger's king she told me abt her stuff and i told her abt my stuff. quite fun you knoe girl to girl talk. yarr.strangely sometimes when i loook back.the times i cried was always on angie's shoulders! lolx. like the time i lost my wallet,failed a test..blahh haha so cutesie. oopx.
am quite happy today cox no homework,tmrw's friday,and tmrw tmrw is sat and tmrw tmrw tmrw is sunday yay.but tmrw tmrw tmrw tmrw is monday.*sobx*..and tmrw tmrw tmrw tmrw tmrw is tuesday........haven met him for quite some time.kinda miss him but
duno larr. okayy yay live each dayy to the fullest yarr! adios.
one ray of sunlight; x
8:44:00 PM
Tuesday, January 21, 2003
so damn damn tired.had training today. sigh den had pt kayy but the feeling when you are running is reallie great it seems that all ure troubles are just gone with the wind. yea. tried to do chem just now reallie tried okayy but duno a shit abt stupid QA fucked up selvam duno how to teach.*ARGH* how am i gonna pass chem this way. *sigh* and im her rep some more! *sobx*
anyhow tmr have practicals! why! so tired of this cycle. sians. but was quite happy today larr cox got photo taking den during recess me and mindy went cookoo okay kept luffing.ha so fun. yea. wad wld i do in sch withough you guys 7788 man. hmm. anyway you knoe sometimes people just hurt you unknowingly.? sighsie or maybe its just cox im too sensitive. wadeverr.anyway it's not the first lorr. just don wanna say only.freaking mum just threw her dman temper on me . she just threw my books on the floor okayy. stupid childish piece of shit. neinei nuw i havta go sch on my own tmrw. damn it larr kayy. damn pissed at her. wadeverr wadeeverrrrrr. *roar*
[ w hat wld life be w/o y o u ]
one ray of sunlight; x
10:41:00 PM
Sunday, January 19, 2003
lalala.so sianified.cant help groaning thinking tmrw is monday again. the cycle starts all over again.
sighsie. agrhh.oh well at least i knoe he's by my side alwys. jesus you rawk.
yea wenta church today was singing. hrmm i totally looked like a lawyer today so formal *shivers* like some auntie
ha. yea. den wenta eat buffet at this thai restuarannt i tell you i think the camp made me got use to eating so much
i ate like a pig kayy den just now went lao pa sat to eat some more..sighh!!! fat fat fat! short short short! arghh.
yea studied cheena test stupid man bet im gonna do damn badly. wadever., im like in no mood to do anything now okayy. *screams*. the dayy is drawing lalalala. im
so excited.
anyhow got sch tmrw. why not another camp>???? haiix. tmrws!
< You make me feel again
slide across my skin again
let me uncover you
to rediscover you
And I will open up
if you promise to give in
on this perfect night
let the two of us be one
We will be again another time
no matter what all the others say
cause I would leave it all so far behind
just to be with you today
So make me feel again
feel your every breathe again
nevermind everyone
there's only me and you >
one ray of sunlight; x
10:50:00 PM
so lately, been wondering
who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone you'll need love to light the shadows on your face
If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Then between the sand and stone, could you make it on your own
If I could, then I would,
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low, I'll go wherever you will go
And maybe, I'll find out
A way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you, through the darkest of your days
If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Then I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you
Run away with my heart
Run away with my hope
Run away with my love
I know now, just quite how
My life and love my still go on
In your heart, in your mind, I'll stay with you for all of time
one ray of sunlight; x
12:49:00 AM
just got off the fone with jon.felt great yarr haven talked to him fer soo long.
yea and im back frm camp!!!! camp was so damn fun.kayy. i felt so comfy with my class.
reallie love my class alot. hee.*smiley* all e sessions were quite okayy esp the exchange session!
reallie got to knoe myself better and ppl said im responsible! *gosh* i reallie din noe that kayy. yea and someone told me
if i put my heart into doing something i will do it well. i was so touched kayy and jean was like telling me how much i meant to her! i was so touched kayy almost cried. den the session on values...*WOA* almost everybody cried. sigh. but glad that me and jess are closer now told her alot alot of stuff. and i reallie have that big sister feeling abt her. luv ya jess. *muck.
ohh yar mag low rox!!! she reallie took me bysurprise cox all along i ve that impression of her being the fiercey fiercey sort but she was damn nice letting us bring fones, den she helped me wash my cup okayy!! yea n she din reallie scold us most of the time. so far i think she's the best form teacher ever.yea*toast to her*. yea and toasting session rox.
hee went for tuision. and slept from 5 to 12! gosh. i feel like a pig. oh well. you knoe what. i think its over. yep. i reallie think so.
what can i sayy. anyhow got to sing tmrw! laterss.
one ray of sunlight; x
12:38:00 AM
Wednesday, January 15, 2003
wow.omg today has been a choo choo train day man! rushed like crazy during chem pract. it was quite fun seeing all the colours and black black stuff changing but also stress manx! *sobx* but sooo glad it's over. sch's been reallie fast this week even though it has been a rough week. adventure camp is coming!!!!!! yaysie! reallie happie.
even though today was crazy we still laughed alot after chem pract ha went lunchi with jess angie and win. had a great time stoning and destressing. yea. so funny. din bring my wallet today and winsie had to pay for like almost everything.then, she always hadta wait for me do this do that ha that she feels she's my pts! lolx. so cute.
haii duno how come i seem to keep losing everything! i cant find my spects and earlier on i cant find my wallet wth im freaking messy i tell you. hmmm. havent met
him for a week ha and i guess next week too .oh well. bu zhi dao.
mum's gettin cranky these days. pms sia. nehneh. hurr.
one ray of sunlight; x
9:59:00 PM
Sunday, January 12, 2003
filled with emotions day. firstly damn happy it was sat went for tuision and kept talking to mel
yea we had a great time den saw ron haven seen him for soo long. yea den went home changed den wena townsie to
meet birdsie saw liwen and sally at mrt station theyw ere going to jay's concert!*jealous.
den wenta buy hairbands,ate and walk ard town with birdsie.we talked alot. told him alot alot
of my probbies with
himfelt damn sad.
he was in town i was in town but
he din fly to
where i was to see me...tt's what birdsie pointed out to me.
*sigh wenta cell with a reallie heavy heart joel was like " you look so grouchy today go get some sleep"
den birdsie " xiang ku jiu ku" *yea**sobx* everyone noes but
he doesnt. everyone cares but
he doesnt..
eighteen more days. the outcome seems to be obvious. i duno. if it really turns out
that way so be it. guess i'll just be sadsie for awhile yea. better den everyday sad righht. been feeling sad for a reallie long time. time to get out of it georgie!. *smile*.be bouncy.
one ray of sunlight; x
1:07:00 AM
are you aware of what you make me feel baby
but now i feel invisible to you like im not real
dint you feel me lock my arms around you
why did you turn away
here's what i have to say
i was left to cry there
waiting outside there
grinning with a lost stare
that's when I decided...
why, should I care
cause you weren't there
when I was scared
i was so alone
you, ya need to listen
im startin to trip
im losing my grip
and im in this thing alone
am I just some chick you placed beside you
to take somebody's place
when you turn around can you recognize my face
you used to love me, you used to hug me
but that wasn't the case
everything wasn't okay .
one ray of sunlight; x
12:56:00 AM
Friday, January 10, 2003
fridayy!!!!!! gosh my long awaited dayy has comed. hai.it's been a reallie busy week. no time to anything at all! trg, pract,and sch ends so late!!! so sad okayy. hate to think of next week..the cycle repeats all over again.*sobx* yea.after sch wenta tp to eat lunchie with kel and all. den wenta townsie with melsie and winsie!today me and winsie had popo blood! sighh.so slimy. ;) ha.we took a super ugly neoprint.but we had so much fun takine neoprint. ha..luffed like xiaonalikana. haii waste money..den we wenta taka to eat ice cream yumyum. brownie earthquake rawks. *slurps*. after that melsie left.den me and winsie wenta lala ard town. okayy larr. better den staying at home. yea. den met birdsie, dennis and some mervyn guy den went home together.*sigh* they were so damn tall man.*sobx*. i don look sec fourish! howse. hope to grow grow grow.ohh yarr heard d.a. wenta sch todae! ha. sighsie not that i like ehr or anythin...but just itx been so long since i saw herr. yea.
laterss! ;)
its sad so sad
its a sad sad situation
and its getting more absurd
its sad so sad
why cant we talk it over.
one ray of sunlight; x
8:39:00 PM
Sunday, January 05, 2003
heyy just came back frm parkway after church.ate pasta mania todae.feeling damn damn fatty.sigh cant afford to grow fat anymore!
hrmm. todae was kinda sian.i guess the thought of sch tmrw just spoilt everyone's mood la.haii.hrm nothing to type.so sian...so sian..i still have to do zuo wen!!!!! *help*. i just hope i'll pull through the week.*S I g H*
one ray of sunlight; x
5:48:00 PM
Saturday, January 04, 2003
*sigh* kinda dread going to sch now cox itx big Os year! haii.if its not for jeansie winsie melsie mindy tellsie sussie and yinsie. i think sch would even worst. but yay yesterdae iw enta esplanade to watch some band concert by acjc. yea it was not bad la. the theatre was cool yep. so boring still need to complete 15 more zhuo wen! *sobx* gtg for cell soon. laters!
one ray of sunlight; x
5:16:00 PM
Wednesday, January 01, 2003
if you're not the one den
why does my soul feel glad today.?
if you;re not the one den why does my hand fit ures this way
if you're not mine den why does ure heart return my call
if you're not mine would i have the strength to stand at all
i nv know what the future brings
but i knoe you;re here with me now.
we'll make it through
and i hope you're the one i share my life with
i don wanna runaway but i cant take it
i don understand
if im not made for you den why does
my heart tell me that i am
is dere anyway that i can stay in ure arms.
if i don need you den why am i crying on my bed
if i don need you den why does ure name resound in my head
cox i miss you
body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
and i breath you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand todae
cox i love you whether itx wrong or righht
and though i cant be with you tonight
but you knoe my heart is with you.
-i l o v e u-*
one ray of sunlight; x
4:26:00 PM
