Sunday, September 26, 2004
got back at 12 from siglap.haven been suppering with the cell in ages.haha.thoughht i'll take a break from all the studying,mum knowsi m stress too so she was like"encouraging" me to go.haha do i seriously look that stressed up and nerdified?LOL.oh well.day was not bad actually,wasnt stuck home got out of the house at 11 plus 12 to study with sugar at holland v.sugar's angie.haha.oh well.we were disciplined as ABC mann.studied from 1 to 4 and den we headed for katong laksa at holland v.bumped into SENG and waynic and i got suaned of my hair by that SENG.you watch out arh.haha.oh well.LAKSA,yes was HEAVEN.its second heaven from ban mee.god,pls make ban mee and laksa happen in heaven,amen.i ate angie's unfinished part too.yayyy.happy happy,shitted at bouna and headed down to church to discuss stuff with zhiheng which was basically unproductive.sighhh.ahha watched the preview it was GOOD!well done ppl.message was clear-cut,short and sweet.(: kudos to all of youu who're involved man.am now home trying to read some gp stuff for the sake of monday.(: its been so clear,he provides for every struggle,he knows every struggle every LITTLE little struggle.boy am i amazed.(:l
alrighhht shall turn in!(:
one ray of sunlight; x
1:55:00 AM
Saturday, September 25, 2004
dere's always something in the way
dere's always something gettin thru
but its not me,its you,its you.
sometimes ignorance brings truth
what hope theres none in what i know
its not in me,its in you,its in you.
is all i know,is all i know,is all i know
i found peace when im confused,
i find hope when i am down not in me,
in you,its in you
i hope to lose myself for good
i hope to find me in the end,
not in me,in you,in you.
one ray of sunlight; x
1:57:00 AM
Friday, September 24, 2004
two very socially suididable things happened in the span of two days:
1)HAIRCUT
yeap.practically look like a bowl,a mushroom head whatever you call it.thats it man im tying my hair from now till it grows. ): all my fault for wanting to cut at mum's new salon should have just stuck to parkway.first reaction after i cut my hair:cousin saw,stared at me as if i was from china.reaction two:grandma saw,pretended not to look at me and ask me if ive eaten.third reaction: cousin laughed like mad and asked me what happened to me. :| thanks alot i really really need that now.sighhhhhhhhh school today was not any better.yeahh dey sure tried to tell me "its a new look quite fresh what","look quite guai"..weiye is the best la,he laughed like MAD.whatever!haha even i feel like laughing at myself when i look at the mirror.ladeeeda.social suicide i tell you.but this morning's verse was super apt la,so apt i felt so shocked.even god knows abt my bad haircut ): oh well.cant wait till it grow cant wait till it grows.chinese was phreaking hard today but i think i knew how to write one word out of the five!yayy.thank god cuz i nv once filled any one of the whole five blanks for all my tests so yay.
2)SINGAPORE IDOL
ladeeda.i appeared on tv yesyes.went to watch the unsung heroes thingy last week.spent half an hour to fortyfive min replying messages and answering phone calls."ehh i saw you on tv!HAHHAHAH" THANKS VERY MUCH.(: i look pissed off and super sian according to so many people.thanks joel for consoling me that i looked good.really thanks.HAHA.went to school today,yarh la whole world come and ask the same question.wanted to bury myself in a hole many many times.jo was the best she laughed till she looked like she was gonna roll of the floorr.yuhui too,for telling me how she and her brother laughed till they almost died.THANKS.and charles kudos to you for wanting my autograph,will give it to youu soon.
lalala.pls dont worry cox im not depressed just telling you how humourous things are recently,oh i talked to candy yest online!i nv knew it was her i always thought it was some irritating person so i didnt talk to her.FINALLY i talked to mr.ikea.(: back to hitting the books.boy am i getting fat.these few days:sleeping,waking,eating,stucking-to-the-chair for goodness knows how long.i need to run,i need to play tennis.all these till seventh oct!!!.
one ray of sunlight; x
2:43:00 PM
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
hey dere!
am taking a break for the nighht haha self-consolation break.oh well maybe till abt 12 den i'll start.haha.didnt go to school yest to stay home.yayy it was rather productive but i still dont know whats wrong with my brain.IT SIMPLY FORGETS EVERYTHING ive tried to memorize.grrr.nvm.today was alrighht school ended early,headed for ban mee and to tuition.sighh ended up taking cab dere AGAIN.its like almost everytime we go dere,we take a cab.as usual he never fails to make me laugh till i cry.i really teared okay.goodness,mr chin's super hilarious esp when he shared about his 17cm height diff with his first girlfren.LOL.talked to da bao just now.she just pierced her tongue!she talks funny like an AH LIAN with marbles in her mouth.(: pls dont kill me.oh well.gonna mug at holland v tmrw cos im ponning school tmr!!i hope its productive.
who am i that the lord of all the earth
would care to know my name,
care to feel my hurt
who am i that the brighht and morning star
would choose to light the way
for my ever wandering heart
not because of who i am but because of what you've done
not because of what ive done but
because of who you are
i am a flower quickly fading here today and gone tmrw
away toss in the ocean,vapour in the wind
still you hear me when im calling
lord you catch me when im falling'and you told me who i am
i am ures.
who am i that the eyes that see my sin
would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
who am i that the voice that calms the sea
would call out thru the rain and calm the storm in me.
whom shall i fear? (`:
one ray of sunlight; x
11:40:00 PM
Monday, September 20, 2004
this is great i cant concentrate for goodness knows what good reason.im practically productive and allocative inefficient and i end up doing super duper nonsensical stuff like walking around,looking at the mirror,going toilet,dreaming about thousand stuff and worrying about me getting retained.what a drat larh.i cant absorb anything.am i too old to remmeber anything?just feeling super irritated with myself.):
oh welll.school was alrighht ended early came home,tuitioned,did essay,now still am struggling with this physics which im so yearning to just drop it.whateverrr.aint going to school tmr so i still have the nighht to burn."yay".
"im so excited".cant wait for seventh oct.cant wait for seventh oct.
happy for nothing only,i should just stop dreaming about all that kinda stuff.you bring me up and den you bring me down again.but den again,you dont even know.haha crap.alrighhht.
shall go pray den study.yes yes.
you're all i want
you're all i ever needed
you're all i want
help me know you are near.
one ray of sunlight; x
11:31:00 PM
Saturday, September 18, 2004
whose eyes am I behind
i dont recognize anything that I see
whose skin is this design
i dont want this to be the way that you see me
i dont understand anything anymore
in this world that Im tired of
is taking me right up these walls
that I climb up
to get to your story
it anything but ordinary
its stupidddddd.
one ray of sunlight; x
7:40:00 PM
ladeeeda
yayy can blog.the benefits of using the church com while waiting for eli and bird.(:
sighhh day was alrighht.managed to complete only two chapters,groooannn.oh well.this weeek ainnt too bad.ehhh wed was goood i went for singapore idol!!(: lol.too bad it wasnt the wild card round aigh.rather hilarious.went with cheryl,clara,gerri and bimbo queeen,thanks babe for the tix!yawyaw.green slipped at ten on thurs due to major fatigue so i went home and slept for 5 hours straighht.i dont know whats tiring me out man,sleep early also tired,sleep late even more tired.*oh well.
still aint too good.
ure so faithful.
one ray of sunlight; x
7:33:00 PM
Saturday, September 11, 2004
looking back
i clearly see
what it is that's killing me
through the eyes of one i know
i see a vision once let goi had it all
constantly it burdens me
hard to trust and can't believe
lost the faith and lost the love
when the day is done
will they open their eyes
and realize we are one
on and on we stand alone
until our day has come
when they open their eyes
and realize we are one
i love the way i feel today
but how i know the sun will fade
darker days seem to be
what will always live in me
but still i run
it's hard to walk this path alone
hard to know which way to go
will I ever save this day
will it ever change.
one ray of sunlight; x
11:30:00 PM
haven blogged in ages,not cox i dont wanna but i cant!!! damn my com,using dad's notebook now.super duper freaking pingpongly tired righht now i feel i haven slept in ten years.):
and not only am i tired but im damn stressed up now la.i seriously haven studied much especially yesterday and today.was practically selling time away to other stuff.this is bad.
"the basement" was a success today!even though we were all so tired doing the haunted house till two plus three last nighht,we had fun scaring our dear customers.heh its not that scary after all!was pretty much afraid at first cox it was super dark la and was afraid i might scare myself instead :x thank god for peiyun(who btw was superduperly scary) for accompanying me by moving about the room.LOL.
*sigh,as usual alot has been happening,dont really like things the way they are not.just did the registrations forms.thank god for dad for helping such a comp illiterate person like me.haven even think about the next waves yet,sighh can i just give up on EVERYTHING or smt.dammit.i need to STUDY hard but i CANT.what if i get retained i 'll prolly commit suicide la haha JUST JOKING.(:
seriously some ppl are pissing me offf to the max alrighht.whateverrr.i dont wanna seee those looks anymore.wahtever you think of me.whatever.
goodness knows when i'll blog again.nighhht
one ray of sunlight; x
10:58:00 PM
Friday, September 10, 2004
one ray of sunlight; x
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