Monday, February 27, 2006
if you call me today
i'll say that im fine
but i bet you cant tell.you know you're getting old when just one day at sentosa leaves you with a sprained neck, aching rib cage, muscle aches, back pain and a headache. -_-
no comment about how unfit i am right now.
its fun digging out old pictures but i wish i had Older pictures. stupid com that crashed before this. ALL my old pictures gone gone gone. alright gonna sleeep! i love mondays :) nus again tmr, hopefully.
just before he says goodnight, he looks up with a little smile.
one ray of sunlight; x
2:09:00 AM
look at melsie! miss you bao!
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1:46:00 AM
i want to see seng botak. LOL
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1:46:00 AM
7788/2
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1:44:00 AM
woo, i miss elsie teo too!
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1:43:00 AM
artistic right!
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1:41:00 AM
i miss fishy's pencil case. HAHA
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1:40:00 AM
hamster land's president! i miss my nose stud (:
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1:40:00 AM
i miss my pencil case.
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1:39:00 AM
Saturday, February 25, 2006
ice-creams and candles;you know what i think? i think i can be the world's fastest human paper shredder! whoa you should see the stacks i shred a day :) i feel oddly accomplished. sigh not that i love shredding paper but i love to clear my things asap, you know what i mean like financing and all i clear them everyday so its the same with paper shredding cept for today i didnt/couldnt clear ALL of it because it was practically a mountain when i came in. zzz
work's been surprising GOOD this week. colleagues fun to be with(finally). crazy colleague kisses me like everyday -_- what more can i ask? anyway i was so free i read a walk to remember(the whole book) yest. i just realized it was so different from the show! mygoodness, i would have to say the show was ten thousand times better even though the emotions evoked were kinda different. hmm
a walk to remember. i really like that show alot.
alright all of a sudden i dont feel like blogging!
cant wait for pay day :D
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there are many things that i would like to say to you
but i dont know how.
one ray of sunlight; x
1:04:00 AM
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
this day, all i want is youdarn happy today, told boss(finally) that ive decided to quit. hard but i did it! just give me another week and i'll be as nua as i can be/i want to be.
somewhere over the rainbow,
i'll try to find my place with you.
one ray of sunlight; x
1:15:00 AM
Monday, February 20, 2006
:)
:)
i really wonder how did she get so funny :D
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12:42:00 AM
Sunday, February 19, 2006
i'll try for one ray of sunlighta good/fast day at work today. i always like working with jas :) at least she's more sincere. and her bf treated me to fries! so my dinner was kinda free :) im starting to wake up from the belief that because i work long hours, money spent on dinner can be quite lavish. NO MORE NO MORE! i shall be thrifty and save. go georgie!
have you ever wondered why there're so many promises in the bible? like really so many.of course it's because our god loves us so much and that it is in his nature to want to blesss his children but read from the mag i got from prayer sem that
the only purpose for god's promises is their FULFILMENT. many a time we hear/ read of these promises with an attitude like 'wow, god said in his word he will do this' but there is that tinge of disbelief or you may call it lack of faith but God is really a simple god. the reason he puts all these promises is for us to claim it and by claiming it, tada things happen. Its like when daddy says i will not leave you alone, he really wont and there is that trust that you have hence the knowledge/expectancy that he will NOT leave me. but for me i find it a struggle sometimes to just simply trust i guess it needs alot of working on.god's been so good ever since i started work, his love and protection never fails to amaze me, and i want to expect greater things to happen from god because our god is a supernatural god and thus we can expect supernatural things to happen! dear god, i want my heart to be that good soil in which your word may be planted in my heart, take root and bear fruits. help me to always remember the importance of indulging/immersing myself in your word!
"for the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any two edged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart"Heb 4:12i want your thoughts to be my thoughts and your plans for me to be my plans for myself.
jesus, love you so much.
one ray of sunlight; x
11:46:00 PM
Monday, February 13, 2006
colour me beautiful;work's sucha drag. i cannot believe i spent the WHOLE ninethirty to ninethirty at the office on a v day. not that i really think v day's a really special day and all infact i think its way over rated. BUT i would have wanteed to go out with the kenn niq win and i dont know who else. was supp to join em for steamboat after work but STUPID v day=no cabs day so i gave up after half and hour home it was. sorry didnt mean to pang seh! zzz.
am thinking of ways to break the news to boss that im gonna quit at the end of this month. SIGH but i cant bear to tell her(not that i love my work so much) but i guess help is really needed in that stupid office. bro says i shld say i want to try other things to widen my horizons? oh man i dont know.
today me and boss talked alot since she was a fellow christian as well. we had a really good talk or rather hearing from her was good. all i know out of this whole conversation is that time is running out i gotta get my grandparents to know the lord asap. i really dont know how besides praying and praying but i gotta find a way. i pray you'll give me the boldnesss!
"Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."john 14:6
"for God so loved the world that he gave his one and only begotten son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life" john 3:16
just try not to worry, you'll see them someday.
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omg this headache is killing me! zzz. must be the stupid sun and the heghness today.i must be mad on cabs lately. i feel no pinch at all taking cabs! and seeing my bank account deplete is not a happy thing at all. i wanna buy so many things with it! :(
tennising with winn kenn and niq today.quite fuunny at some point laughing with the stupid cool boy and all. had my longtimenoeat chicken chop:D nus again! dont know why but nus seems so far away like jb or something everytime i go there all i can think is : take a cab. zzz.was supposed to go aunt chris's house but stupid headache/nausea was so bad i had to scoot home. sighh was really excited about our first singing lesson! oh well.
i guess this entry's pretty pointless!
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one ray of sunlight; x
9:20:00 PM
evermore my heart will sing;a very tired girl i am here tonight. physically(aching from tennis -_-) and mentally but its that sort of tiredness where you know everything is good everything is in good hands, His hands but i just feel so tired like something's pulling me down. maybe its work maybe its you maybe its them maybe its just me. i just got to get over it. EMOTIONS will not get the better of me and the willpower to not fall into all that stupid mood and momentum.of course not by my own strength but by His.
God's been good you know how you always know thats He's near us, he's always around us and how
sometimes you feel him sometimes you dont. somewhere in youur head there's just an acknowlegement that God is with you whenever wherever? but last night it wasnt just the knowlege that my God has been with me through every stage of my life but it was a BANG BANG realization that he has indeed been with me in the past, now and he's gonna be in my future.i dont really know how to explain it but it seems as though that fact has really become a fact you know? zzz. our God is a detailed God, he zooms into details.minute everyday stuff you never think God will bring it up but he does and ohh when he does, that comfort and joy is unexplainable. thank you god for your love thank you god that you want me to know that you're here and that your love is going to see me through and i thank you that you will reveal your plans and your thoughts for me one by one, step by step in detail.
jesus christ is the same yesterday and today and forever(heb 13:8) thank you that your love is steadfast and unchanging. :) i wanna rejoice in you because you've given me reason to rejoice.
so i'll let my words be few,
jesus, i am so in love with you.
ive become very lazy ever since i started work, this will not do.
one ray of sunlight; x
12:00:00 AM
Friday, February 10, 2006
"so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to
grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19and to know this
love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God."Eph 3: 17-18
love that surpasses knowledge!
"eh come live with me in smallville, with all the farms"
"foetoeshawpping says:
i want jesusy-looking birks LOL
are we ever gonna learn how to fly; says:
JESUSY?
are we ever gonna learn how to fly; says:
BLASPHEMY!"
"u can learn to fly 4 bout 1min
after jumping off a building...den u'll learn how to land wrongly...
den u'll meet God hu'll teach u de proper wae to fly n land safely"
"last time i check, they dont ahve flying schools"
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i still wanna ask, are we ever gonna fly.
we've come to far to leave it all behind.
(this is the last time).
one ray of sunlight; x
12:46:00 AM
Thursday, February 09, 2006
i can fly
but i want his wings
i can shine even in the darkness
but i crave the light that he brings
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cos maybe you;re gonna be the one that saves me
and after all, you;re my wonderwall.
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cos all of the stars
are fading away
just try not to worry
you'll see them some day
take what you need
and be on your way
and stop crying your heart out
get up
come on
why're you scared?
you'll never change
what's been and gone
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you wont see me
im alright
im alright
you wont see me cry
one ray of sunlight; x
12:31:00 AM
Monday, February 06, 2006
stand by me,nobody knows the way its gonna be."The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.
Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever."Psalms 23
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"What, then, shall we say in response to this?
If God is for us, who can be against us?
He who did not spare his own Son,
but gave him up for us all—how will he not also,
along with him, graciously give us all things?"Romans 8:31-32
God is good yes? (:
these few days have been so-so, am refraining from succumbing to the monotony of work and the ground-hog days feelings. zzz yes hanging to God very very tightly! anyway one month's up and im amazed ive beeen through work for ONE MONTH so fast but i guess because one month's up its time for me to leave! HAHA still contemplating though. hmm. been doing nothing but shredding papers/filing for the past few days because accounts closed. ohh and i treated the family to dim sum at china town on saturday! ahah felt quite good acty treating ah gong, ah ma and family. i still think this is a better way, a more meaningful way NOW to give my money to the family. :) and of course buying stuff for them. ahgong ahma's happy and so am i! they were like boasting in front of all their relatives la :D
this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time - I will fall
into a place that fails us all - insideright,oh no i have missed ten minutes of desperate housewives!
one ray of sunlight; x
9:42:00 PM
