Sunday, January 30, 2005
how many special people change
how many lives are living strange
where were you when we were getting high?
slowly walking down the hall
faster than a cannon ball
where were you while we were getting high?
some day you will find me
caught beneath the landslide
in a champagne supernova in the sky
some day you will find me
caught beneath the landslide
in a champagne supernova
a champagne supernova in the sky
wake up the dawn and ask her why
a dreamer dreams she never dies
wipe that tear away now from your eye
slowly walking down the hall
faster than a cannon ball
where were you when we were getting high?
cos people believe that they're
gonna get away for the summer
but you and i, we live and die
the world's still spinning round
we don't know why
why.
one ray of sunlight; x
1:38:00 AM
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
i wont talk
i wont breathe
i wont move till you finally see
that you belong with me
you might think i dont look
but deep inside
in the corner of my mind
im attached to you
im weak
its true
cos im afraid to know the answer
do you want me too?
cos my heart keeps falling faster
ive waited all my life
to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so i will not hide
its time to try
anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true.
you dont know what you do
everytime you walk into the room
im afraid to move
im weak
its true
im just scared to know the ending
do you see me too?
do you even know u met me?
i know when i go ill be on my way to you
the way thats true
this is true.
one ray of sunlight; x
11:24:00 PM
just got to put up this hot babe even thoughh cousin said she's getting a lil bit on his nerves i still think she's damn pro (: woohoo
YES HE WON! haha wanted to finish up the match but mum was pissing me off so we went home BUT MY HOME NO SCV!!!! shit larhs now i know why they say it doesnt matter how big your tv is )): the match was uber exciting larhs got my grandpa(he's damn cool) and cousins screaming like mad.LOL. anywaee at least he won. yayynesss even thoughh nalbandian was good stuff i still hate him for winning CORIA (: hurrrr.
sighhhh he's damn cute.pooor boy sufferred from groin(dont know how to spell) pain.
sighhh i wish i had scv.-pouts-
anywaeee didnt go for cross today and yes so did sy roy kenn and fishyho we're the ultimate slackers larh seriously. (: had a good day woke up at ten plus den rushed to clementi with EZRA to get my mc. THANK YOU SO MUCH BRO for making the two hours there so short ((: and many thanks to gerald for his directions to the polyclinic and the successful methods to get mc.woohoo. yeahhh after that rushed to town to "study" with angie and then headed down to gwc with angie of course we studied and most impt we saw a HOT HOT HOT GUY> seriously he was selling kachamputeh LOL dman hot alrhs. oh mannn. i know i sound super bimbotic but yeahh he's really cute. okay i shall shuddup. sighh didnt do a shit today but tis okay at least i completed my chem tutorial! woohoo (: alrighhteyy time to watch tv.like what fishy ho said,"i feel like im in a holiday mood already".
one ray of sunlight; x
10:24:00 PM
Saturday, January 22, 2005
for your love is higher than the heavens
deeper than the sea,and all i want is you
in my life.
weeek has beeen surprisingly good! thank god (:
sunday: TIGER CUP FINALS! woohoohoo. so fun la had a blast screaming and i love number six (: woohoo thank god for binoculars.
monday: first day of the week's always good (: a new beginning every week. yayness for that.
tuesday: short day, ponned chinese,landed the class in abit of a trouble, but still it was good.shopping with gerri and down to clementi avenue five for tuition with mr chin and new tuition mates.had a blast laughin my ass off man. (:
wed: short day, friendly with sas, cute small little boys,i like. (: down to henmen's for tennis with coria
thurs!: last day of the weeek.counted down for a really long time (: tuitioned lucas and down to city with ez da mei jem and bunny. (:
friday!: down to fishy ho's house for project but i seriously felt i didnt do anything.bird and xun left so it was us and even thoughh we did almost nothing i thoughht it was quite fun larh had a fun time taking pictures.
ayeeee we looked like idiots. i think yati thoughht i was wierd :X den it was the long trip back to my hometown wahh i think i majorly embarrassed myself la nodded off like noddy and almost fell on someone's shoulder(damn smelly la he).got to great world to help mum out and it was home sweet home. noticed i ddint mentioned a single word of studying? yeahhh this implies im so dead. ive got;
1) gp essay by monday
2) essay outline by tuesday
3) physics tut
4) maths integration
5) gp worksheeeet
yupp.sighhh i can predict sunday's timetable.
here i go so dishonestly
leave a note for you my only one.
and i know you can see righht thru me
so let me go,you will find someone else.
one ray of sunlight; x
1:21:00 AM
Sunday, January 16, 2005
i totally agreee with the "feeling many feelings in a day or two days" thing.and im still amazed at how quickly feelings change. you mighht call it moodswings but yeahh. im happy now. anywaeee first lesson of the year with mr chin and hye's still so hilarious as ever tuition company was good with charels and angie dear.down to town for my chicken rice.town was ZZZ thoughh i wonder why. maybe cos of flu.cell came overr good time of fellowship.(: love abide (;
yesss! im going for the league tmrw! yayyyyy. wanna feeel the atmosphere man.
how come the feeeling of fighting for friendship gets stronger as you get older? primary school days werent that case.just friends so easily and now its so hard.i wonder why.sighhh "earning" friendship? nmust it be earned why cant it just come with the flow. yeah but im grateful that my god's love is nto earned it is GIVEN. (:
and by the way i like the way angie's analysis of things.indeed it was a phase.WAH im amazed. you can jolly well be my second LC.love youu sugar.
alrighhtey time to hit the bed.or maybe the books? (:
some say you're in the grave but i say you're alive.
one ray of sunlight; x
1:59:00 AM
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
have i mentioned that i love tuesdays? (:
-ended at twelve plus today. (:
-down to raffles with fihsy ho to meet siok today,
-lunched sucked thoughh.
-downt to town SUPPOSEDLY to meet angie at THREE
-ended up studying alone first
-her phone got confiscated ): pooor sugar.i love youu!
-met her all the same at fourish with charles: thanks for the kitties and help with maths!
- both of us shopped/window shopped and of course catched up(thanks for brownie dear)
-yupp thanks to bird who messaged me when i was alone looking like a LOSER. (:
-and da bao i think i change your name to da kongbabao okay? more original HAHA.i missed youu.next tuesday? (;
one ray of sunlight; x
11:47:00 PM
we sat upon your bed,
you said the things you said
and i could not believe that you seem so naive
we exchanged our poetry,
you seem to think a lot like me
i'll guess i'll just assume that we could talk about most anything
then i asked have you ever felt abandoned?
felt so lost that you were stranded,
just like all the walls are closing in
and you were left inside
have you ever felt like your days were numbered?
stuchk under a tree in thunder
seems to be no way out!
but there is one when in doubt
ready for another day
slowly watch ya waste away,
havin' fun, bein' cool
like we did in high school,
elementary romance feelin' nervous at the dance,
crack a smile hold it down,
whatever the circumstance,
sex, drugs, hadda be cool,
sll the things we learned in school,
typical teenage machines,
anyone tell me what this means?
i could learn, i could try,
never really had an alibi
wish i did, that's no lie
everybody's asking
why?
when you feel like you cant fly
you gotta know I got the answer for ya baby,
drives ya crazy, it's not over
theres so much more to life then this
things seem so hallucinary,
in the corners of my mind they scare me,
i know ya never meant to desert me,
just like ya never really meant to hurt me.
one ray of sunlight; x
11:43:00 PM
Sunday, January 09, 2005
i dream i can run like the wind and be strong.
this song's been on my mind the whole day la after listening to it in the taxi.HAHA the malay uncle was like shaking his head i guess all malays are damn proud of taufik anywae anyhow tmrw's school! yeahhhhhhhhhhh back to the studying.i need strength i need hope and i cant wait for the week to be over.
into your hands
i commit again
all i am, for you.
you hold my world in the palm of your hand
and i am yours forever
jesus i believe in you
jesus i belong to you
you're the reason that i live
the reason that i sing
with all i am.
one ray of sunlight; x
9:43:00 PM
got off the fone not long ago with my baby-mindy! (: wowee its been a long time but we had a good time catching up.she forced so much stuff outta me la. stuff that i have never told anyone yet boy you gotta be honoured man babe.LOL.im surprise i acty told her i mean i seldom tell anyone about my stuff now.yeahh
dont you think sometimes you just complicate things?like the issue is simple this means this and that means that but somehow you got it all twarted up.i dont know.all along i think in my life i never used to think so much i mean just dont think too much la youu know god says this its this but this time i find myself struggling with god knows what.
ive learnt something today.once you've already set bounderies for yourself and for god, god will remember it even if its just some lame resolution or whatever. or is something you think "maybe i can twist the rules a lil" and "god lets just forget about it" but no.god honours that promise/committment and he reminds you everynow and then.also, there will be no temptation so great enough that you wont be able to stick to that boundary.by his grace, by his strength.
btw im really scared now i think i lost my ic and i know my mum's gonnna find out and i know she's gonnna scream shout and scold me.i think i lost it in church BUT im not sureeee sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh. its like it was my first time carrying my ic last weel cos usually mom always keeps it for me but i needed to bring for confirmation form and TADA. FIRST TIME CARRY i lose it.man im super careless la.im really worried.wish me luck i hope i find it at the lost and found thingy tmrw.pls god.*crossingmyfingers
yeahh.i dont know.do you?
one ray of sunlight; x
1:39:00 AM
Friday, January 07, 2005
its nearing one freaking am now and i forsee my plight tmrw. was thinking of continuing my tutorials later but since i do not know how to do a freaking question whatever la okay. sighhhhhhhhhhh these few days have been horror cos i didnt do my holiday homework at all yuppppp thanks to MYSELF,aighh whateverrr got zero for gp cos i ddint hand up on wed like whatthehell la okay fine get 0 still okay you know but i STILL have to do it.rushed like madddd for it la.&(&*^%^&$%$$&. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. and then there's chem and maths i need mr chin bad so im gonnna call him real soon and im gonnna engage a chem tutor okay that shall be my resolution for next weeek. seeing all those j1s really make me miss my first three months day.damn fun larhs oh wells its back to all the serious work and trying to finish my tut.not too good not too good. but then again it may be good.keeeps my mind off alot of stupid stuff. and ya BTW ELISSA OH you're a sucker la please dont anyhow talk cock please or i'll slap your asss off. (: alrighhtey im outta here at least tmrw's friday but then there's trg.aighh can you see that im tireddd.i really am sleepy but at least by god's grace the insomia thing is gone! (: yayy.back to my work.wish me luck.
do you know that everytime you're near
everyone seems so far away?
one ray of sunlight; x
1:34:00 AM
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
this is so irritating la im damn damn tired really damn tired but i CANT seem to sleeep.WHY!? i use to sleep the moment i get onto my bed.maybe im still adjusting to school life but its super irritating la forgive me for my lack of variety in my vocab. aighhhhhhhhhh.but it gets on your freaking nerves becasue the same cycle just starts all over. cant sleep in the night-->wake up in the morning zombiefied-->falling asleep in tut and lect--> cant concentrate--> cant wait to end school-->sleep in the afternoon---> and there we go again. ):
im tired mentally and physically and its only been two days of school and charles's phonecall while i was trying to sleeep made me even more hyper thanks alot buddy.
sad and tired.
its damn cold these days esp now! im freeezing.zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz not brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
shit guess what i totally forgot i have to handup gp tmrw.THANKS ALOT i haven even touch la whateverrrrrrrrrrr freaking shit.yeahh like i said im serving my own sentence so no complains georgina tay jing ting.just shutup and do what you're supposed to do.
cold on the outside as well as on the inside.
goodnighht I HOPE.wish me luck! (:
one ray of sunlight; x
11:38:00 PM
Sunday, January 02, 2005
im not falling **, am i? sighhh NO IM NOT im not going to im not im not.forgive me for this entry i just need to sort things out with myself. im not im not.
conclusion: im not. (i think) HAHA.
when the car broke down
we just kept walkin along
til we hit this town
there was nothing there at all
but that was all okay
we spent all our money on stupid things
but if i looked back now, i'd probably give it all away
just for one more day
one more day with you.
one ray of sunlight; x
10:06:00 PM
Saturday, January 01, 2005
HAPPY NEW YEAR (:
the "long-awaited" new year is finally here. ); im not exactly embracing the new year with optimism and
humanly-joy.haha oh well but i guess its here so we should all look on the brighht side of things eh? and yes the joy of the lord shall be my strength. (:
new year's eve was great fun i tell you! (: went to jb with sam peiyun stef ez and gerald.FUN! haha had a helluva good time shopping walking around and eating good food.thats why i say abide's the funnest cell anyone could have LOL> alrighhtey headed down to church thereafter for watch nighht service damn funny la we had communion so late it went into the new year and everybody was like WHISPERING new year how anti-climax! LOL. oh wells after that we(me,ez,eli,stef,gerald,joel,jon tang,amos,amelia,barney,sam,jem) headed down to jem's new house.DAMN CHIO la three levels,nicely decorated just no furniture yet.bridge,daidee,jenga,risk(the guys).wasnt exactly very happening la cos most of em were playing risk which's super boring la.haha den they woke us up to play sardines! haha not say very fun also,boy was it tiring man. (: dont know why this time new year's morning was quite boring.thinking back on last year where we were at ecp looking at stars,sunrise ooh and i caught a shooting star was somehow
funner.is this a hint as to what the year wiill be like? the big As are finally approaching and tell you the truth im scared because i never hated studying so much until i started studying for my promos so how am i gonnna get through it? only by your grace and your strength i suppose.less fun MORE work MORE effort MORE self disclipline MORE listening MORE surrendering and MORE of you and less of me. and so after a not very exciting night me and gerald left for the west early early and while we were walking it started raining like mad la!!!!! oh man the weather's so unpredictable so we took shelter under a teenage/kiddo tree damn pathetic la me and gerald look like some two idiots hiding underneath the small lil tree and i was shivering like mad and i think the tree didnt even shelter da mei.LOL> so jem came to save us! TADA so nice he drove us to the mrt with a few others.uhhuh yeah yeah so thats my new year for you.im gonna keep my new year's resolutions to myself and hopefully these resolutions wont be sitting at my noticeboard rotting.
one thing i know for sure in the coming year would be that my god will
never leave me nor forsake me.NEVER and im thankful for that and that promise is for EVERYONE so no matter what you did,no matter how far you've ran away from him, he will always be knocking at your door so for those who ran far far away rededicate your life to him this year!yupp off to pack my room, do my homework, cook my lunch and lead a peaceful day by myself.cept for dinner with the thai relatives.
jesus lover of my soul
jesus i will never let you go
you've taken me from the miry clay
set my feet upon the rock
now i know
i love you
i need you
though my world may fall
i'll never let you go
my saviou,
my closest friendi will worship you until the very end.
one ray of sunlight; x
2:51:00 PM
