Sunday, October 31, 2004
thanks for all you've done
i missed you for so long
i cant believe you're gone
you still live in me
i feel you in the wind
you guide me constantly
i never knew what it was like to be alone
cos you were always dere for me
you were always waiting
now come home and i miss ure face so
smiling down on me
i close my eyes to see
and i know you're a part of me
and its ure song that sets me free
i sing it while i feel i cant hold on
i'll sing it tonight
cos it comforts me.
this song's like damn damn damn sad.everytime i listen to it im like crying la.): sighhh not that it applies to me or whatever its just sad.alterbridge rocks my sockss but i still want creed back though.ohwells.
it sets me freee
one ray of sunlight; x
5:48:00 PM
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
you're falling back to me
you're a star that I can see
i know you're out there
somewhere out there
you're falling
out of reachdefying gravity
i know you're out there
somewhere out there
hope you remember me
when you're home sick
and need a change
i miss your
purple hair
i miss the way you taste
i know you'll come back someday
on a bed of nails I’ll wait
im praying that you don’t burn out
or fade away
all we are
is all so far.
one ray of sunlight; x
10:44:00 PM
SIGH.
as usual the same old person was pissing me off just now WHATEVER la huh.why send the whole ppt to him for what?english damn bad la still ask him to coalate everything.sharks man.grrrr.yes yes anger is no good no good at all.thank god i didnt listen to him and call him back if not all the %*%*( would have just flowed out unknowingly.boohoohoo.PW sucks.yeah truly even if i have to say it hundred times i would stil say it.anyhow.thank god its gonna be over so is chinese!today was a major slack day.left school at 11 and down to popular again! LOL.bought davincci code today,really interesting book.and yest i boughht rick warren's purposeful living(kinda forgot the title).i feel so knowlegeble.anywayys.im bored bored bored.outta here! (:
one ray of sunlight; x
10:34:00 PM
Sunday, October 24, 2004
ive got destiny and purpose
ive got everything i need.
ladeeeeeeeeeeeda.
what a fruitful sunday.(:
went for confirmation class today with a couple of people with pastor.i thoughht the session was wonderful even though he calls it the "testing" questions.but kinda learn quite a few stuff from that short session.(: like do youu know now that dere's nobody in hell?everyone's in hades waiting for judgement day.maybe it was covered before but it was sure interesting la.(: anyhow.went for second service worship,sermon was good.you know if there's one thing i learnt today would be to be thankful for everything and then the realization that without god we're NOTHING,we're nothing at all.it's always good to be in the presence of the lord!woohoo stacey madonna lalala.erm okay./yest was open house.yawn yawn.cant deny it but it was quite boring.if i hadnt been playing tennis i think i would have
cried a river and drowned the whole world(bored to tears).uh huh uh huh.i like it.lalala.nothing much today.just that wai wai came over to my house for pw but computer went maddd so we chatted instead.haha and indulged in chinese music woohooo im cheeena mann.listening to all the jay zhou/chou songs from the past reallie makes me wanna cry.LOL.okayy emoo frreeeeeeeaaaaak.righht.should really go off now am using cousin's comm.im FORTY SEVEN kg can youu believe it i just went to face up to reality just now and i didnt know i was that heavy!!!!!!!!!!!!!WTH.im trying to believe that the development of major muscles are the cause of that 5 kg increase.
"Therefore since we have a great high priest who has gone through the heavens
Jesus,son of god,let us hold firmly to the faith we profess.For we do not have a high priest
who is unable to sympathize with our weakness,but we have one who has been tempted in every way,just as we are-yet without sin.Let us then approach the throne of grace with
confidence,so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need."
-Heb 5:14-16
you're making me smile. (:
sometimes i fall so fast.
one ray of sunlight; x
8:20:00 PM
Thursday, October 21, 2004
happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me.
happy birthday to me (:
whoops im late by 18 min of wishing myself.im finally seventeeeen! today was a "trick georgie" day.people kept showing me how they forgot my birthday and blah.at 12 mid i was busily preparing my oral presentation for tmrw when all the birthday smses got in.waited waited for at LEAST one of the members of 7788 to message me BUT no one messaged me.i was damn sad la esp since da bao didnt even message me.nehnehpok.got to school in a reallie bad mood cus i slept like damn late la.den birdie bluffed me that her chinese book was in the locker and so i went to open the locker and TADA a present from my bimbos.I LOVE IT thanks sweeeeties.btw i really really ddint think you all got me anything.thoughht i was just gonna have a really peaceful day.went out with darlink reina.its good to seeee her woohoohoo.shopped and i spent a bomb on her present but i was happy (: hoped you liked it.thanks for spending my birthday with me sorry i had to leave. (: angie "dated" me.so i met her.sighhh that pooor bloke gave herself away so many times.but nevertheless it was a pleasant surprise! got to wheelock's and tada 7788(minus winn and est) was dere waiting damn touched la.LOL.just when i thoughht that was the end,dey lured me to whisma and a mouth-drooling oreo cheesecake was waiting.i almost cried la.(: the present was another surprise.(: aw man thanks BABES esp to my BEST da bao and my everything-do-together da de for planning this thing.LOVE YOU GUYS LIKE MAD.somtimes i wished i was in ceeejay den i'll get to see all my babies everyday.oh wells.dere's a reason why im in sa.uhhuh.weishan!thanks for messaging even thoughh ure like overseas in the uk or smt.(: man am i amazed. well basically thats it. commited the year to the lord last nighht too its just so great to pour out everything to him.
"for i know the plans i have for you,
plans to prosper you and not to harm you,
plans to give you a hope and a future.
then you will call upon me and come and pray to me
and i will listen to you
you will seek me with all your heart.I will be found by you
and i will bring you back from captivity"
-Jeremiah 29:11-14
erm. yarh winn my lousy pts wanted me to tell everyone how she ended my birthday by being the last one to message me at 12. -_- applause.*
one ray of sunlight; x
1:17:00 AM
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
have i mentioned pw sucks? at this hour im still trying to start my part for op.somebody saveeeeeeeee meeeeee.stayed up till one to do pw written report too and thank god the word count was exactly 2500. anyhow,didnt go to school today.
went out with joel.a sort of post celeb for my birthday LOL.thanks for the movie and the card.after that went to meet bird zhiheng and later on stef came for publicity discussion.as usual alot of brain juices were sucked up. ): walked around with elbird for a long time in search of my darling bestest's present.HAPPY BIRTHDAY REINA DEAR!I LOVE YOU.and im always glad that our birthdays are one day apart. oh yes thanks bird for walking with me for so long.lalala.
in my dreams
i'll always see youu soar above the sky
in my heart dere'll always be a place for you for all my life.
i'll keep a apart of you as me.
and everywhere i am
dere you'll be.
pearl harbour rocks! back to PW.some people are pissing me off about PW. pls have some responsility and i'll be eternally grateful.
one ray of sunlight; x
11:23:00 PM
Sunday, October 17, 2004
fight the fight alone
when the world's full of victims
dims a fading light in our souls
leave the peace alone
now we all are slowly changing
dims a fading light in our souls
in my opinion seeing is to know
the things we hold are always first to go
and who's to say we won't end up alone
on broken wings im falling
and it won't be long.the skin on me is burning
by the fires of the sun on skinned knees im bleeding
and it won't be long
ive got to find that meaning i'll search for so long
cry ourselves to sleep
we will sleep alone forever
will you lay me down
in the same place with all i love
mend the broken homes
care for them they are our brothers
save the fading light in our souls
in my opinion seeing is to know
what you give
will always carry you
and who's to say
we won't survive it too.
one ray of sunlight; x
6:29:00 PM
Friday, October 15, 2004
it's okay to be angry and never let go
it only gets harder the more that you know
when you get lonely if no one's around
you know that i'll catch you when you're falling down
we came together but you left alone and
i know how it feels to walk out on your own
maybe someday i will see you again
and you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend
take you away from that
empty apartment
you stay and forget where the heart is
someday if ever you love me you'd say its okay.
its okay.
basically having jumbled thoughts now so dont mind this post,i cant even really figure out what im acty feeling.dere're many emotions you go thru each day.was very very happy for a moment today,then proud of my self,then super lousy like how hard you try it just doesnt work?i dont know.maybe thats one of the consequence of not commiting everything to him.you just feel like ure losing ureself.losing ureself into some deep dark hole and somehow you're unable to control 'it'.sometimes i feel so damn fake.yeahh hate it it disgusts me sometimes i so hate this skin sometimes.i know i know no condemnation righht?but i cant help it.damnn i should get a private blog like soon.lalala told you it was rubbish you wont understand la.damn tired now.
one ray of sunlight; x
11:59:00 PM
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
all i wanted
all i needed (:
tired tired tired.double yawn.got back not too long ago.i feel drained,burnt and TIRED.yes feel like i could sleep for a thousand years.didnt go to school today.helped mummy in the morning,strange encounter with the fat woman yuck.left for training.which was HOT.the weather was hot la.madness and it wasnt one of those slack trgs.thought i lost my phone got into a huge frantic and tada i "hid" my phone in my spectacle case.*SIGH*.left for town for our so called tennis outing in which only me jo yu and kenneth participated how sad.caught wimbledon like finally!nice show so much better than last nighht's lady killer.(: kirsten dunst super cute.love her dimple.den FINALLLY i met up with 7788 minus min sue and shiyin.MISSED THEM ALOT (: caughht up,ate at billy bombers.hilarious time with em.its been long since i had sucha good laughh.(: dinner was sooooooooo filling,wanna eat dere again! neoprinted and played pool with mel and winn and den headed for ice milo peng.busy day but at least i managed to do what i wanted and caught up with my babies.yayy.sighhhhhhhhhhh.tmrw's doom day.mighht be getting back some results and doing pw sucks. anyhow just gonna thank god with whatever results he blesses me with.yeah yeah.IM BEAT.im becoming deaf again!this is so irritating i should consider seeing a doctor man. alright outta here (:
one ray of sunlight; x
11:43:00 PM
Sunday, October 10, 2004
party party party
that's been the focus after promos man! (: let me see.friday was good,wenta jo's chalet,played tennis for awhile.sucks la i coudnt play at all played like some faggot not like i wasnt a fagoot tennis player last time but : oh well watched abt one and a half movies.i watched scary movie!IT WAS NOT SCARY (: haha.im so proud of myself.yayy.watched butterfly effect anyone has the vcds?i seriously need to finish up the show.left for elissa's and maylin's birthday party.food was good,tennis was so-so,dunking sasa was fun or at least watching her being dunked.(: left for home tired.but at least not tired from studying.HAHA no more reactions for the time being.saturday was not too bad too.fetched sis to lorna winston.LOL.was quite fun acty den i went to shop shop by myself at lido.its damn nice to shop in the morning can.only got taitais superr quiet unfortunately nothing caughht my eye.ohwells.met up with danny roy and stephhy!our mini og minus three?dont know.good la.session was basically gossiping oh and shopped a little.neoprint with danny was hilarious.(: left for cell.ahha fun fun.i love ABIDE alot alot alot.(: its my nest.lol.thank god for abideans.playedmany rounds of polish uno haha and i didnt even win a single round la must be the bad fengshui around ezra.christelle's pool is like how nice la.im going dere to swim no matter what.hurr. ladeeedaaa.today! second wave of publicity.my goodness shaoxiong's super duper duper funny la he and his funny dance.thanks to everyone who helped.lovelove.helped mum after church with cousin business was bad bad bad.shopped by myself at great world again.HAHA and this time i boughht a couple of tops!LOL.stayed at zara for like one hour i think got lots more to buy.sighh this is bad.i get indecisive when i see clothes.anyhows weekend was great.tmrw's gonna be good too i hope not going to school tmrw nehnehnipooppoo.dad's off to mel again that lucky man sighh oh daddy gave me a kiss on my cheek just now LOL.its been a long time felt wierd acty oh well i just tried to shrug it off by pretending to be caucasianified.why do we have to grow up sometimes i wonder. lalala.
my goodness one of the longest entry so far.gonnna vcd soon. *evil laughterrr
one ray of sunlight; x
10:41:00 PM
Friday, October 08, 2004
FINALLY
exams are over like finally after what seemed like a million years.sighh even thoughh most of the papers were bad,i
do not want to care anymore, never hated studying so much till i started studying for promos.ladeeda,major relief now that's over.thank god for how he pulled me thru the sleepy nighhts,the weehours in the morning,for his assurance that he is greater than the 'ghosts' that roamed the streets at 3.majorlly thankful.*love.anywae,caughht white chicks with class people cept for the rest of the girls besides yuhui me and bird.it was damn funny la.looking forward to wimbledon.yayy kirsten dunst HOT man.(: took neoprints ,the machines were : must get myself familarise raedy rem the times where you just knew what machines were nice what were not.sighh.YES my life starts now lets just forget abt PW and the phreaking cheena As man.better turn in now thoughh.i think im having a slighht fever and a major headache.how appropriate is this man.lookin forward to tmrw.
you've fallen out of reach.
one ray of sunlight; x
1:11:00 AM
