Sunday, June 27, 2004
back from cell.pretty exciting time of bible quiz.took train home with eik feng(huw to spell!),pretty wierd since i seldom even talk to him,first time for everything i guess.uhm spent the rest of the journey thinking yeah,think i caught the thinking disease from stupid sasa.grrr*headache.haha.went to eueu's house again before that to study.not bad at all,the chapters covered may be little but at least i understooded,i guess i'll just have to pray for the best la.aint exactly hoping to pass.=]
alrighht,gotta go bathe den study.sighh if only.
ten to five atleast we tried
we're still alive but hope just died
as they close the door behind you
whistle blows and tons of steel
shake the ground beneath the wheels
as I wish I never found you
one ray of sunlight; x
12:20:00 AM
Thursday, June 24, 2004
(:
productive dayy today!studying at eunice's house reallie helped.studying in her room and at her table reallie made me miss my own room,my own table and my own stuff,my private time by myself.sighh.cant wait to move in asap.=|
oh well.covered almost the whole physics syllabus(not that thorough due to UNFORSEEN circumstances) and finished econs.yayy.=]maths-help,im screwed,i seriously cant do a single sum for the tys/trigo sucks.ahhhhhhh.had a good time pigging out at that pig's house,my goodness she takes so many breaks.HAHA.dont kill me.=]i hope i helped made your studying progress better.=]
anywaeee,this whole week just flew by,it was a quick one for me i guess.
played tennis yesterday morning with jon and angie.yayyy.tiong bahru open yet again.har har.good time of sparring despite the number of balls jon hit out.=x studying was uber unproductive,slept four hours in the afternoon,watched 5 hours of tv.=[
had tennis chalet on tuesday.not too bad,food was more than sufficient for me,my chicken wings' crave was curbed.thanks yuhui for the food.tennis before that was good as well.
its like a picture,that figure used to be in the midst of all that,talking laughing,mingling.in the picture as in very involved in everything,life itself.then suddenly,that figure moves further and further and further back,the whole picture seems smaller and away.still,they're laughing,talking.suddenly he realises the faces of those ppl,so ugly,so sickening,the things they say,the backstabbing,the gossips about himself,the two-sided-face of most of his friends,the made up facts.the flipping of the faces utterly disgusts him.it becomes extremely clear..it breaks his heart.
and the things of this earth will grow strangely dim,in the light of his glory and grace.
one ray of sunlight; x
10:46:00 PM
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
iloveferrero.
one ray of sunlight; x
11:36:00 AM
lord i thirst for you
i long to be in your presence
my soul will wait on you.
father draw me nearer,draw me nearer
to the beauty of your holiness.
and i wait for you almighty god
in the beauty of your holiness
and i will worship you
almighty god
in the beauty of your holiness.
just finished tuition with lucas.grr he reallly makes my blood boil,felt like a mother with three kids when i was tutoring him.*wipes sweat
anyhow not too bad studied till 2am while watchin the first day of wimbledon.so upsetting,paradon out :| laladida.hrmmm am thinking about the adjusting part,form what ive observed about myself,seriously,have been in the comfort zone for toooooo long.too comfy,need some major adjustments here,how?i really dont know,a step a time i supposed.sighh.shall nap first,gonna to for tennis chalet later on,another wasted day from studyin.
help help help,dont wanna feel the way i do now.god you know me best,you know what i need,what i want,what i feel,i lift it up to you.
look at the stars,
look how they shine for you,
and everything you do,
yeah, they were all yellow.
i came along,
i wrote a song for you,
and all the things you do,
and it was called yellow.
so then i took my turn,
oh what a thing to have done,
and it was all yellow.
your skin
oh yeah, your skin and bones,
turn into something beautiful,
you know, you know i love you so,
you know i love you so.
darn it,got that song stuck in my head. :|
one ray of sunlight; x
10:59:00 AM
Friday, June 18, 2004
yayy back from church camp in Malacca!=] it was woweeee,believe or not the messages slots were the highlights of the camp.my goodness,it really opened my eyes,new perspectives,so many amazing things revealed.heh obviously I cant write it all here,its all in my journal.(:it was a refreshing time really,am hungering for more and more of his word each day.yeah,I wanna take up that high calling,wanna be in the first resurrection!yeah yeah.(:it was also an excellent time for bonding between the girls in a b i d e.shared a room with
eueu,heh,we both do silly things and obscene things together.only she can tahan my grossness.my room mate rocks even though she abandons me sometimes.LOL.we had a good time taking sooo many photos of ourselves.however,sad to say,its seriously quite unexciting in the nighht ah sharks what happened to our adventure?*sobx.adventure without our cell guys are just different.heh.=]
Anywae got back at six and we left at one.no,we dint go to kl but went to Malacca.haha.sighh it was sucha a long journey back.journeyed with eueu daryl and eueu’s parents.thanks for fetching me back(even though I know dey aren’t gonna read this)hugged my baobei like mad when I reached home kissed her a zillion times as well.(:
Mummy dearie bought me sooo many things from Thailand.heh im so blessed.
Famine camp
What a hilarious camp.thirty hours without food (: the experience I’ll never forget.yeah me and yuhui stuck together a lot,she’s my partner while im being blindfolded.okay you know at the part where we supposed to “look for food in the battlefield” *snorts loudly*,I just held yuhui’s hand soooo tightly we stuck together giggling and laughing while we search(blindfolded)for those tiny soya beans.since we were laughin so much,I guess dey decided to bomb us.what the heck,just made us laugh so much more till the person asked yuhui if I was unwell as in sick not jokingly I tell you.ahhhh so funny.we
sure felt like refugees man..grin grin.however,dere was just this bit of awakening as I saw the different video clips of those children,it just tore my heart la how dey were plagued with aids at a super ungodly young age.ahuh,how we complain about food how we throw away food so carelessly,when dey don’t even have enough to go round.*sighs I don’t see how the conditions will get better?hopefully of course.some of those pooor villagers plagued with aids,sicknesses,malnutrition,some were christtians and i was truly touched because despite those harsh conditons,dey still praised the lord,they still loved him and worshipped him with singing and dancing.yet so many cant do that so many cant believe that the lord can turn their mourning into dancing.seriously we know not what suffering is mannn.anywae.the ‘war” we were supposed to go thru at three am was super funny larh okay,sigh just too hilarious to be typed.=]slept on cold hard floor had lemon barley for lunch,honeydew milk for breakfast and soyabean for dinner.how nice.of course immediately after the breaking of fast,daddy and I rushed to Newton circus!stingray and fish porridge so I wont regurgitate.yummmy daddy said I acted as if I was set free from prison.LOL.
That’s about it,I gotta admit these camps are seriously taking me further and further away from my studies.oh man.im screwd left with one week,all I can do is pray and study as much as I can I guess.
one ray of sunlight; x
11:45:00 PM
Friday, June 11, 2004
just got back from ruixian's bbq cum birthday party.wasnt exactly the best barbecue but nevertheless i enjoyed myself heh trying to gorge myself with as much food as possible yummy the sausage rocks.=] my dayy was alrighht.met mindy dearie to STUDY but noooo..we did everything but not that.sighh that girl's sucha distraction.=p anywaee we went walk walk wanted to watch a movie but no slots for confessions of a teenaga drama queen.oh well so we shopped(window shopped),we bumped into chinfang xingying and all!MY CHINFANG,still so innocent still so child-like,i tell she's so far,the mostt kind-hearted girl ive seen.she's gonna take up nursing i heard,when me and min heard that,we laughed like crazy aiyarhh chinsie.=]so nice bumping into them.yayy.saw quite a few sa people as well.hrmm.saw croc and his girlfren and darren and his girlfren.today's a bumping-into-people-day.oh we took a neoprint but it was horrible sigh hate taking horrible neoprints just waste of money.=[
famine camp tmrw,im going for FAMINE camp.what-the-heck,i reallie wonder why am i going to this camp, 30 hours no foood,no bathing and no SLEEPING till 4 in the morning and you can only sleep two hours,wow how appealling,oh well,the gorging begins.=]supper time!
anywae,i guess this will be the last i'll blog till next week till den.ohh yayy!i got my payy!it may be little but it definately came at the righht time.oh yes you know what,a few weeks ago i was only left with ten bucks,very very poor,den last sunday i gave and prayed that god will provide and tada i have not only thirty bucks in my piggy and also 100 bucks from my payy!my god is great!indeed,my jehovah jireh.
feels wierd,it really does,suddenly i feel im by myself.
all by myself
dont wanna be.
aiyrhh but i know im not.but....
one ray of sunlight; x
11:54:00 PM
Tuesday, June 08, 2004
am talking to
jess online now.
gawd i miss her!that tortoi is definately someone i miss alot alot alot.miss going out with her,chatting,laughing at all her blurrness.sighhh its gonnna be a long while before i'll get to see her eh?love you babe.=]
watched the match last nighht coria against gaudio.sighhh dammit larhh i so wanted
coria to win can.how can that gaudio win???and pleaseee,his smile sucks,half the time i wanted to smash the damn tv cox of his stupid smile.*grrrr.on the whole i was practicallly ripping the sofa while watching.heh.love th way he bounces all over./
anywaee,today was good.tanning session with jeann was superb!stupid winnn dont know what happened alrhh MIA.=]i think i got a teeny winny bit tanner.love siloso beach.yayy we're going abck dere next next week.=]went home den went for my cousin's wedding dinner!awww.i wanna marry a captain or wadever that works in the navy.the march was soo cool.=]
its just different,christian weddings and those weddings are just so
different so much less meaningful,i dont know its just not as perfect.bahh.mumsie's leaving tmrw.i wannnnna go.=[
nvm she'll get me lots of things.i'll miss baobei thoughh!
one ray of sunlight; x
12:50:00 AM
Sunday, June 06, 2004
jesus
i believe you in youand i would go
to the ends of the earthto the ends of the earth for you
alone are the son of god
and all the world will see that you are god.you are god.
yesterdays fop was whoahh!i think one of the most refreshing moments so far.=]so happy got dere expecting much and i got sooo much.yeahh i would go the ends of the earth for you.its gonnna be hardd but i willl try with the strength you give me!love you love you love you.=]
that in ure heart of hearts i stand.
i feel so loved.really,his love is so abundant so much.and all you have to do is just accept it because everything is already done on the cross for you.=]
on a more materialistic note.hehe.went shopping with mumsie today!!yes again.boughht some stuff im super happy.mummy is great.she's leaving for thailand with baobei on tuesday,sighhhhhhh cant go with them,pray for protection and journey's mercy eh?okaokay,cant wait for my tanning session with muh babies tmrw!(:
one ray of sunlight; x
11:13:00 PM
Thursday, June 03, 2004
bao!!ure blog's revamped!haha bet its not u who did it rights?cos ure my dearest com-dumbo!!hehs im so excited cos im gonna meet ya ltr!!missya truckful*
one ray of sunlight; x
2:18:00 PM
Wednesday, June 02, 2004
yayyy.
im in a happy happy mood.=]
just came back not long ago from shopping with mummy baobei and reeena(cousin's maid).sighhh basically i got all my wants thanks to my dearest dearest mummy!love her.=]
i got my mambo bag and my puma top and my pointees!all in one dayy.any idea how lonnng ive been eyeing all that stuff and just in one dayy i got everything.=]thank god thank mum.
never in my life have i been so desperate for money,my resources are definitely extinct all i have left is prolly abt 20 bucks in my wallet/piggy bank if you exclude the coins.so if ure kind enoughh pls donate to the poooor-and- needy-georgie-fund.she'll be most grateful=]
played tennis again today,this time at gerald's(da mei) house.played with angie da mei and ezra.good game i must say.played for two hours den we headed to town to eat my ban meee!
sighh dint go with da bao and winnn for their suntanning session.bet i missed out on the catching up part,i dont care you two are going with me to the beach next week again.*hurrrr.
yayy church camp's just round the corner,cant wwaiiit.but i gotta study okay,elissa you better make sure you sit down for two str8 hours a dayy to study with me if not i'll slap you.*grin.
great singapore sale sucks,its making me broke.
one ray of sunlight; x
10:52:00 PM
Tuesday, June 01, 2004
been looking,so many people talked abt pft.hrmm haven had a chance to relook my pft results.
let me see...
2.4km--12.52
sit and reach--44
incline pull ups--20
situps--34
shuttle run--10.somthing
standing broad jump--179
yayyy a gold!
one ray of sunlight; x
11:52:00 PM
everytime i feel alone i can blame it on yoo.and i do.
dayy started out wonderfully even though i woke up at a super super strange hour at 9 o clock.sighh i concluded,i can no longer enjoy the blissfullness of sleeping late into the day like how i used to.*cries*.woke up,actually wanted to study but no..i had to watch a stupid tv programme which basically sucked but my eyes were just superglued.what the heck.left at eleven to meet jon and barney,yayness we got some stuff done for hooha.sighh what bad comm members we are.whatever happened to the commitment part?*groan* got to work on that aspect man.anywaee.came back,didnt wanna meet kenneth and all so i went back but den i saw the attractive glistening tennis courts in the brighht shining sun.soo i called angie and tada we played again.went swimming after that.=]yippee,at least i dont feel so grey anymore.had a good chat with her,good to know she's doing well with her jon.=]
sighhs.i need to talk to YOU.but i cant and i wont.sometimes i wish i can just relive my childhood days,talking abt childhood i think i have one of the most enjoyable childhoods.dont you think that as you grow older,its just so hard to express ure love to anyone whom you love so much.oh man,i dont mind being in primary school larh.ehh like ezra says,the real world is ugly.
:|
one ray of sunlight; x
11:30:00 PM
you just bring me down
one ray of sunlight; x
12:07:00 AM
