Tuesday, November 30, 2004
baby,i know you're hurting
right now you feel like you could never
love again
now all i ask is for a chance
to prove that i love you
from the first day
that i saw your smiling face
honey, I knew that we would
Be together forever
ooh when I asked you out
you said no but I found out
darling that you'd been hurt
you felt like you'd never love again
i deserve a try honey just once
give me a chance and i'll prove this all wrong
you walked in, you were so quick to judge
but honey he's nothing like me
i'll never break your heart
i'll never make you cry
i'd rather die than live without you
i'll give you all of me
honey, that's no lie
as time goes by
you will get to know me
a little more better
girl that's the way love goes baby, baby
and i know you're afraid
to let your feelings show
and i understand
girl,it's time to let go
i deserve a try honey
just once
give me a chance and i'll prove this all wrong
yes yes what a soapy cliche crappy song.but its damn sweet larh really damn sweet.dont care.
all these precious moments
with you by my side.
one ray of sunlight; x
1:25:00 AM
Monday, November 29, 2004
- slept at three playing online pool with charles.stupid boy. LOL
- woke up at seven plus, went for training which basically sucked big time.really la
yuckk played like shit and got SUNBURNT and stomachache came back for awhile -_-
- went for lunch at ps.didnt really enjoy my food, bitched abit about someone.LOL
- down all the way to mambo for pool with joshua.sighhhhh depressin playing with a pro man.
- met angie dear walked a lil, den taxied home,she popped over to my house to slack
- played tennis at henmen's with coria and venus.(im anna) (:
- lil supper at mr bean (:
- winn "sent" me home.finally did her job of a pts.(sighh to get vcds.) =]
- home sweet home.
-i really wonder what im doing online now.im uber uber tired. nighhhht.
haven been sleeping late in a long time cos ive long evolved into a pig.sleeping at three does major wonders man.felt like i was floating the whole day.LOL.oh wells, am so not myself today.im tired i neeed to sleep for twelve hours which is highly impossible cos i needta go down to church tmrw.yeah yeah. tmrw's a long day. aigh.and im f reaking pissed with that t shirt person he haven even send me the rough design of how it looks like on the shirt la.HURR.i shall call again tmrw.alrightey.i really misss my comfy bed bed. (:
one ray of sunlight; x
11:30:00 PM
im happy very happy super happy.(: laaaaaaadeeeeeeeeeda
no more tummy ache no more no more!! thank god thank god.ahha man im happy i feel even happier than the time i finished promos.LOL.yesterday was already fine and i went shopping with mummy mummy mummy! we boughht at least she bought alot of stuff i dare say we spent a bomb.mummy's so nice.(: went down to church today!didnt go last week so i felt really good going to church.(: went down for confirmation class first thing wow was it brain draining! but nevertheless i learnt new stuff, and im glad yupp getting confirmed oh man sounds damn old.i dont wanna be old!LOL>okay went down to second service den walked over to parkway, jem drove us back to church for meeeting.woo im ATL, acty didnt want to be anything just wanna relax youu know what i mean.but man its gonnna be exciting.anyhow we had a short meeting and a time of prayer as a comm i thoughht the prayer session was really good.(: there is some sort of assurance.we cannot seee whats gonnna happen in the course of the camp or maybe we cant see good things coming out of the camp be it little girls,or less rara ppl or not ons group but the gyst of it is knowing that our god is control and everything that comes from him is goooooooood and so the camp will be goood.his presence will definitely be there!woohoo im excited.really worried about the t shirts but den again i left it in his hands.(: ohhhhh " the greatness of a man's power is the measure of his surrender" i so love that phrase/quote (: after meeting we went down to parkway again for POOL finally.gerald wu sucks la i can winn him single handedly.ahem ahem lost by a bit only la.haha.woteverrrr i suck at pool now yewl.must practice more.(:
alrighhtey back to online games woohoohoo.and pleeeaaaaaaaase louis khoooo 's damn cute i still love him.i'll find a nice pic of him soon.(: traning tmrw?i think im gonnna just zombie.ladeeeeeeeeda.tata.i really feel like eating claypot frog leg now.as in really.shit.nvm byeeeeeeeee
one ray of sunlight; x
1:47:00 AM
Friday, November 26, 2004
i really thought i was better on sunday.but no no no sighhhhhhh its been a week and im not well yet!!!! even right now YES right now i feel like vomiting and my tummy really feels bad.yeah bad really bad. visited the doctor like four times la if tmrw not better im gonnna seek a second opinion.sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.can you sense my frustration?this is a freaking holiday la HOLIDAY and what have i been doing this week>>>>????staying home,sleeping,shitting,groaning.man this is unfair.sighhhhh.am feeling extremely frustrated.been missing out on alot i hope tmrw morning i'll be well enough to go for training.damnnit.
went out of the house after five days at home.went to tpb with angie dear to watch bride and prejudice.FUNNY MEH? i had to try to laugh la so much dancing and singing.yawn yawn me and angie escaped to the other theatre but it was polar express not my cup of tea so it was back to bride and prejudice again.oh well.on a happier note elpizo is approaching!yayy yayy yayy.i hope i'll be well.no not hope i WILL be well by god's grace.yes yes i must claim his promises and i must no give up.
dere were times
in the beginning
when you were there
when i needed you most
we'd sit and talk
about the future
and laugh about
us getting old
do you know
how it feels
i hope that you know that it matters
but when i try to talk to you
i feel like im not getting through you
where did we go wrong
it's hard to be strong.
one ray of sunlight; x
1:15:00 AM
Sunday, November 21, 2004
im much better now.
these few days have been horror man.saw the doctor three times in two days even had an injection on my BUTT(malu malu malu).really thank god im much better now just gotta pray it wont get worse in the night yeap cos doc said that it normally gets more painful in the nighht couldnt sleep for 2 nights in the row la!anywaee,im gonnna eat and eat and eat from the day my stomach heals onward.im gonna eat breakfast,lunch and dinner and im gonna eat ON TIME.im so not gonna lose weight or skip meals or eat as little as i can to save money (to buy stuff) and im gonna eat fulfilling breakfast EVERY morning.oh man.i had enough of gastrics.thank god its not appendicts la.phew.i love grandma to bits these two days have been staying at grandma's in the afternoons cos mum's working.ah ma cooked porridge,cooked macaroni came into the room to check on me so many times.sighh felt so loved by her esp since she was the one that broughht me up.seeing her aged so much really made my heart ache.i really hope she receives christ asap. ): and i missed celebrating mummy's birthday at jack's place -sigh- and i didnt have time to buy her a card or a present and i missed dinner at country manna's today. man im missing out on alot of food. ):
ladeeeeeeeda.i feel like eating ban mee,bibibaba,oyster ommellete,chicken rice,macaroni with cheese,crabs,prawns,bbq food,school's laksa and strawberries.
man im happy my appetite's back. (: enough of white porridge and plain macaroni and MEDICINE.
one ray of sunlight; x
10:15:00 PM
Friday, November 19, 2004
im dying i swear im dying.this stomachache aint any minor thing anymore.had it for a couple of days,thougght nothing of it but today it was really really bad.so bad i felt like crying at times la.sighhhhhhhh.see doctor also no use la okay it still hurts like mad la what kind of painkillers man. pissing me off.i cant enjoy my dou yu vcd la and i cant sleep either what the heck.i wonder how i managed to train for three hours today man.im burnt again la as usual a lobster.sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.help help help.pleaaaaaaaase be over by tonighht.lord by your stripes im healed yeah?got the t shirt issue finally settled.i really am praying hard it turns out nice/okay.yeah sighhh.the design not exactly what we wanted but oh wells.unforseen circumstances.yeah.guess what i watched the forgotten!heh my first "horror show" LOL.closeed my ears half the time.pooor fishy ho me and yufan were clinging onto her.haha.alrighhtey i should turn in soon.please anyone reading this please pray for me.thanks.
one ray of sunlight; x
9:43:00 PM
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
well done i have six hours of sleep before i go for training laters.yawn yawn.
am currently talking to my t4 sugars on line.god i miss them so much.oh man.(: esp my je jess.ahha.anyhows.today was rather fine i must say.out with the da de.yeah was a really silly outing,can youu believe it we scooted off town without buying anything wasssup with our eyes man.(: lalala. landed off at marche's for brownie with ice cream.yummilicious.a rather tai tai life today man.mai dong xi chi dong si.LOL. its amazing how god provides.really.just yest i was feeling all you-know-what and today im blessed with things simple things that made me really happy.faced with a diff situation just now, but the way i handled it made me realized ive grown.haha yes i have and kinda proud of myself.yeap.(:
alrighhtey.off to my bo-ing bo-ing bed.
do you have the time to listen to me whine?
one ray of sunlight; x
1:52:00 AM
Sunday, November 14, 2004
summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
as my memory rests
but never forgets what i lost
wake me up when september ends.
one ray of sunlight; x
9:50:00 PM
and i wonder
are you thinking of me when im thinking of you
and i wonder...
yoyo check it out yo.
my feeet are aching from helping mum at great world.super super duper sian day aside from church.yeah yeah basically earned thirty bucks today but so what i needed my freaking beauty sleeeep mann.-____- anyhow today was the "last" pub wave for youth camp!i thoughht all of them did really well i mean at least i really felt excited.haha thank god.really am excited for the youth camp!its finally approaching whoops haven really settled the Tshirt part though.ALBERT come back now!LOL.sitting at the "shop" doing some major stoning got me thinking about alot of things man.haha most of it were silly thoughh.one of those days you wish you could "finally rest your head on something real" and "like the way youu feel".bahh.i cant go wild wild wet tmrrr!!!!!!! how sad is that.i still hate auntie molly,really,its unfair UNFAIR.hrmm.nvm i shall watch my VCDS tmrw heh im gonnna buy the handsome handsome guy show oh sharks forgot whats the title.darn it.the past week's been good,sigh i felt like i lived in the east or smt.been travelling to the east more than i go to the west la.WTH.i should migrate or smt.LOL.quiet time was fruitful,learnt alot and i shall and MUST be disciplined.yeah yeah.oh yes "I will be their GOD and they will be my people" i forgot where that verse came from but when i saw that from somewhere i cnt helped but be touched and awed at my wonderful wonderful GOD.(:
one ray of sunlight; x
9:37:00 PM
Friday, November 12, 2004
taxi is sucha funny show!im glad i finally caught a good show after a long time.(:
and jem did send me home well at least opp my home.haha feeels good to be fetched home by ure FREN>muahaha.anyhows.idol wasnt as fantastic.ladeeeedaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.im bored okay i think im off.chem nine to four tmrw.oh man just save me will you.
one ray of sunlight; x
1:23:00 AM
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
sighh.the world's sucha an ugly place to live in man.sometimes i just wish i can like teleport myself up to heaven or something.
some people are just freaking self-centred,in their eyes whatever dey do is righht whatever others do is wrong.like what the hell.living in ure own world and only caring about ureselves.like yucck.im so glad alot of things are gonnna be over soon man.talking about responsibility,yeahh i guess alot of us dont really have that especially me but YOU? you really think you have been responsible oh come on.who are you trying to kidd?oh man.and to another person.so you think you're really doing alot?yeah man the only think thats alot is you opening ure mouth far too much.and to that person on the train who conveniently closed his eyes when the old lady walked in and OPENED his eyes when the old lady found a seat:CONGRATS,you've become one of the persons i despise most.hurr hurrr.and i hate i really cant stand people who just make sarcastic remarks non-stop and think its very funny.its not,once in a while yeah its fine,everyone laughs and its over.but youu need to know there are LIMITS,call ureself a fren man.i dont know la.duhh i know im not perfect or like the best person in the woorld.but i need to vent it all out mann.auntie's gonna visit soon i guesss.
lord let me truly understand what's forgiveness,and the ultimate goal of being like you.
one ray of sunlight; x
1:22:00 AM
Sunday, November 07, 2004
hey you.
reealized i haven been blogging as much.haha nothing much to blog or rather im just too lazy.(: anywaee uploaded sentosa picts raedy!at the bottom of the links.so 77 ppl go take a look huh huh.gotta run.(:
saviour,redeem my heart again.
one ray of sunlight; x
1:22:00 AM
